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Wow
Today has been perhaps the worst day ever.
first i wake up and find out that someone gave krysta the link to this journal and that shes all pissed off because i could no longer handle being in a relationship where i very rarely got to talk to her and when i did get to talk to her it was on MMDN in pm's and i'd always have to wait for a response. Then i get on MMDN and checked my pm's first thing like i do everyday but this time i find 4 or 5 pm's from her telling me to fuck myself and that im a pedophile and blah blah. Then martha got an IM from shay saying that martha shouldve told her that we are together and that if she would've known that then she would've never told martha she liked me and that she's never gonna make that mistake again because "tonight is the night that all the mistakes end" or something like that. so now i have to worry about shay possibly doing something stupid. Now martha feels bad because she thinks its her fault even tho it's not at all. I shouldve TOLD krysta it was over instead of ignoring her and hoping she'd take a hint and get over me (that obviously didnt work) and i knew shay liked me before i told martha i liked her and wanted to be with her. but w/e im with martha and that's the only person i want. then my aunt and grandmother went somewhere for a few hours and then when they came back my grandmother was being a fucking asshole and was bitching at me about nothing then she started screaming and saying how the only thing i care about is being on the computer all day and that i better start going to bed at a decent hour "or else",ohhh im so fucking scared. its like this here everyday and i dont know how much longer i can handle it before i snap.
well thats all i have to say.
martha i love you so much and i always will.
this is my fault not yours
Today has been perhaps the worst day ever.
first i wake up and find out that someone gave krysta the link to this journal and that shes all pissed off because i could no longer handle being in a relationship where i very rarely got to talk to her and when i did get to talk to her it was on MMDN in pm's and i'd always have to wait for a response. Then i get on MMDN and checked my pm's first thing like i do everyday but this time i find 4 or 5 pm's from her telling me to fuck myself and that im a pedophile and blah blah. Then martha got an IM from shay saying that martha shouldve told her that we are together and that if she would've known that then she would've never told martha she liked me and that she's never gonna make that mistake again because "tonight is the night that all the mistakes end" or something like that. so now i have to worry about shay possibly doing something stupid. Now martha feels bad because she thinks its her fault even tho it's not at all. I shouldve TOLD krysta it was over instead of ignoring her and hoping she'd take a hint and get over me (that obviously didnt work) and i knew shay liked me before i told martha i liked her and wanted to be with her. but w/e im with martha and that's the only person i want. then my aunt and grandmother went somewhere for a few hours and then when they came back my grandmother was being a fucking asshole and was bitching at me about nothing then she started screaming and saying how the only thing i care about is being on the computer all day and that i better start going to bed at a decent hour "or else",ohhh im so fucking scared. its like this here everyday and i dont know how much longer i can handle it before i snap.
well thats all i have to say.
martha i love you so much and i always will.
this is my fault not yours