Weather: depressed and tired with a chance of tears
The Friends: Well I don't really see people much because I don't have a car...and neither does anyone else. Carlie is my best friend through the internet. We talk pretty much everyday which is good and makes me not so lonely. Jackie has called me a few times but mostly just a phonetag situation there. Miss her. Shauna came home this weekend and visited me in Maggie moos, we were supposed to hang out last night but the ppl I was babysittin for got home too late. Lisa and I are trying to schedule a time to get together but it's not happening. Ashley, miss that girl...but it's a distance issue once again. And there are many others that I have lost basically all contact with like Andrea and Aimee. Oh I can't forget my internet buddy Kyle, my friend Eric' roomate. He is hilarious and always online and very talkative and interested in my life for some strange reason he thinks I'm like the shit.
The relationship: Well its pretty shitty. Distance... once again. Not to mention he doesn't have a phone... I don't even get random drunk dials anymore. It makes me really sad.. I don't even feel like we are together anymore except that I still dream about him alot. I'm starting to not miss him as much because well I've gotten used to it. The longest sentences I get online are "so what else is new". Unless of course he is complaining about his roomate. I found out about his life mostly through decoding his away messages. Sad but true
The family; Well I feel bad for the rents. I'm a unmotivated 21 year old that STILL doesn't know what she is doing with her life. So there is alot of tension there. My brother is kinda in the same boat as me. But he is an ass to me most of the time. I'm jealous of my sister right now because her life seems to amazing...good job good boyfriend good friends and lots of fun..not to mention she is beautiful. She saw my older brother the other day...that's a whole other story.
School: eh, yeah school? definately on the back burner... I'm thinking of going back to state but who knows if I will be able to get accepted into the program I want. Plus it's a buttload of money, however that would be amazing if it did work out.. I'm working on it. If that doesn't work I might go to wayne state and hopefully get a car. So that is all shady for now until there are some decisions made and it is definately stressing me out.
Work: It's getting boring there. But I'm glad George is the new manager. He is way better than Jessica, she was always on a power trip and not a good manager.. she was always stressed out unhappy and fake. All in all i'm happy I work there
Me: I'm an emotional mess. I'm depressed. I don't really want to do anything accept lay around these days. I've tried to get myself motivated to do things but I always end up putting them off. "I'll do it later" is my favorite phrase. I'm always caught in the "what could be" instead of worrying about what is.
Desires: I want a kitten. I want to move out. I want a car. I want to go into interior design. I want a good paying job(well good enough paying). I want to be in shape.
The relationship: Well its pretty shitty. Distance... once again. Not to mention he doesn't have a phone... I don't even get random drunk dials anymore. It makes me really sad.. I don't even feel like we are together anymore except that I still dream about him alot. I'm starting to not miss him as much because well I've gotten used to it. The longest sentences I get online are "so what else is new". Unless of course he is complaining about his roomate. I found out about his life mostly through decoding his away messages. Sad but true
The family; Well I feel bad for the rents. I'm a unmotivated 21 year old that STILL doesn't know what she is doing with her life. So there is alot of tension there. My brother is kinda in the same boat as me. But he is an ass to me most of the time. I'm jealous of my sister right now because her life seems to amazing...good job good boyfriend good friends and lots of fun..not to mention she is beautiful. She saw my older brother the other day...that's a whole other story.
School: eh, yeah school? definately on the back burner... I'm thinking of going back to state but who knows if I will be able to get accepted into the program I want. Plus it's a buttload of money, however that would be amazing if it did work out.. I'm working on it. If that doesn't work I might go to wayne state and hopefully get a car. So that is all shady for now until there are some decisions made and it is definately stressing me out.
Work: It's getting boring there. But I'm glad George is the new manager. He is way better than Jessica, she was always on a power trip and not a good manager.. she was always stressed out unhappy and fake. All in all i'm happy I work there
Me: I'm an emotional mess. I'm depressed. I don't really want to do anything accept lay around these days. I've tried to get myself motivated to do things but I always end up putting them off. "I'll do it later" is my favorite phrase. I'm always caught in the "what could be" instead of worrying about what is.
Desires: I want a kitten. I want to move out. I want a car. I want to go into interior design. I want a good paying job(well good enough paying). I want to be in shape.