Aug 07, 2006 22:19
Well...idk
I'm just not so great now
Feeling helpless, and hopeless, and meaningless
Just feels like nothing in my life is ever going to work out
How my life is now is probably going to be how it is the rest of my life
I'll be single, and working to get money for no reason
I feel like going to sleep...and I hope that I wont wake up
Maybe this is all a dream
Maybe none of this is real
I mean...I can't remember things I should
Like...I tried to picture Brittany...but I can't remember what she looks like.
Everytime I think I'm close to getting a picture in my head, the image just sort of turns to sand and falls away.
Does anybody find this wierd?
If this is all real...well...what if I woke up one day.
But it was as if I never met Brittany
Like I'd open up my wallet and see the pictures and think "who the hell is this?"
What if out of nowhere I just completely forgot about her?
How long would I last?
I need to stop thinking.
I'm stopping now
Thats it