(no subject)
You know I really don’t update here a lot. Normally when I HAVE TO write I’m not on my computer. But it just happens that today I am.
God today was soooo frustrating. And usually I can deal, but not today. It started with Gaby at band rehearsal this morning. And just stuck with me all day. So I was helping that new flag girl learn the routine for the first drill, when Gaby calls us over. She was upset that none of the shadows fell in that morning or the one before that. Which I understand, but damn I was like the only girl on the sidelines doing anything; well anything constructive anyway. So that kind of pissed me off, because I would have fallen in, but Gaby wasn’t going to teach her, all she did was wonder around the field for the entire rehearsal. She’s the flags instructor; it’s her job to teach us the routine. But I’m the only one who knew her stuff and was willing to teach her. And now I’m getting shit for it. I’m not the kind of person who just worries about herself. Apparently, I should be if I want to EVER get a spot in the show. God that’s shit. Man that’s just not cool.
So Mr. Farley’s class was mostly tolerable. Mc Nely’s was boring. Then lunch…and bake sale…too many people and I freaked out. Alejandra was being bitch and NOT letting me finish a sentence, so I went inside. After lunch I got to hang around in Mme Mc Nely’s room. We had a short “officer meeting” and then I counted the money. It was Madame’s conference period so we talked for a while. That was nice, but I didn’t really get much off my chest. After that I went to about half of Physics with a substitute. I didn’t do my work. In between fifth and seventh I had to go give something to Mr. Oakes (who wasn’t there by the way.) So I was late to my seventh (Ms. Ring) who was very condescending about the whole me being late for the first time ever thing (not really ever but you get the idea) I mean even Adam was in class before I was. That class was all right, but it’s not like I had fun or anything.
So school lets out and I have flags practice. I got there and got set in the block before even the band members were out of the room. So I was just fucking around until we started. I caught a toss and I popped a blister that was on my finger. I went to go get a band-aid from Mr. Noley. So I was putting it on at the trashcan and Gaby calls the guard to attention. She says that if you aren’t in the block you have 40 push-ups. Fucking hell I was there before she was, I had to fix my finger and I still get push-ups. She says it doesn’t matter, I still should have been in the block, so what I should time my injuries around her schedule? What the fuck is that?!? So we started practice and learning the new drill, and she was changing like EVERYTHING!! Gir. And she would wait until after we had learned it one way to change it. I was getting so pissed being in that room. And then Saittha, Sarai and I were way in the back so we couldn’t really hear or see what they were doing anyway. Poor Jessica had to come back and teach us what to do like every two seconds. (I’m sorry about that by the way Jessica) And then at the end Mr. Paquin gave us this speech about not challenging and shit like that, just like what I heard this morning, just longer. Jesus.
Like everything that happened today just made me want to give up. Not to mention give in. After everything today, I just wanted to resort to my old ways and that’s not cool.
Well anyway, thanks to whoever decided to read this rant. I god…I need to learn to stand up for myself.