Ending April
Well, it's been something of a crappy week. I've had one of the worst cases of PMS ever, and somehow managed to develope a stress-related eye-twitch. Geoff tried to help by telling me about this time when he had an eye that twitched for weeks and it finally stopped and his eyelid just sagged. Some help.
My biggest problem is that I am absolutely completely broke. I had about $700 left in the bank to tide me over till I got a job this summer. However, on Friday I ended paying all of my money (and actually having to take money from Geoff) to pay for a summer class I found out I need to take. $752! So, I have nothing, and worse than that, since I'll be taking this class I won't be able to start working full time here next week like I had hoped. I might not work at all until the class is over June 3rd.
I've sort of sunk into this kind of numb despair about it. (Of course the eye twitch just goes to show I'm still freaking out somewhere in my subconscious) Of course this depression is causing me to eat more, and that makes me feel guilty and worthless. So, yeah, it's been a crappy crappy week. And next week's finals so I hope I can pull it together enough to do well on them. If I don't get strait A's this semester, I think I may be even more majorly screwed. Everything with school seems like such a huge strugle. Between scheduling, and fufilling my education requirements and trying to get this study abroad stuff together, I feel totally overwhelmed. It seems like I have my advisor, my department head, the assistant dean, and the study-abroad coordinator, and they all tell me different things, send me in different directions, and blame each other for any problems. None of them would want to go out of their way to help me, because that would mean doing somebody else's job, and it's not their fault if someone else isn't doing their job. So where does that leave me? Why am I fighting tooth and nail each little step of the way to try and get my education? In some ways, I really regret ever leaving Clarion. Shippensburg seems like a joke of a college.
Well, enough bitching, I better get to class...
My biggest problem is that I am absolutely completely broke. I had about $700 left in the bank to tide me over till I got a job this summer. However, on Friday I ended paying all of my money (and actually having to take money from Geoff) to pay for a summer class I found out I need to take. $752! So, I have nothing, and worse than that, since I'll be taking this class I won't be able to start working full time here next week like I had hoped. I might not work at all until the class is over June 3rd.
I've sort of sunk into this kind of numb despair about it. (Of course the eye twitch just goes to show I'm still freaking out somewhere in my subconscious) Of course this depression is causing me to eat more, and that makes me feel guilty and worthless. So, yeah, it's been a crappy crappy week. And next week's finals so I hope I can pull it together enough to do well on them. If I don't get strait A's this semester, I think I may be even more majorly screwed. Everything with school seems like such a huge strugle. Between scheduling, and fufilling my education requirements and trying to get this study abroad stuff together, I feel totally overwhelmed. It seems like I have my advisor, my department head, the assistant dean, and the study-abroad coordinator, and they all tell me different things, send me in different directions, and blame each other for any problems. None of them would want to go out of their way to help me, because that would mean doing somebody else's job, and it's not their fault if someone else isn't doing their job. So where does that leave me? Why am I fighting tooth and nail each little step of the way to try and get my education? In some ways, I really regret ever leaving Clarion. Shippensburg seems like a joke of a college.
Well, enough bitching, I better get to class...