I suppose I could hold it in, but you excite my every cell

[ceraunophobia]

I'm not happy, everything that should be right side up, is upside down, and it fucking sucks. The worst part of it is that I don't have the balls to go and get what I want. Screw anyone who says I can't do it, or says that it won't be any use. But I can't sit in bed replaying this stupid scene to make me feel better. I have to go out and do it. And if I ruin shit, and make it so akward it hurts I'll at least have the feeling of knowing that I went out and did it, said what I felt and didn't look back.

It's got to happen sometime, casue this stupid thing is eating away at me, and it probably sucks for everyone else around me.

PERFECT SONG FOR THIS
Gavin Degraw--Crush
Well my past came in
You dropped the ball
It didn't change the way I feel
And I was wishin I'd break down your walls
A kiss will know if flips things still

There is a line I cross
There when you missed, a loss
I'm not a loser
Girl, you know that I'll be back again

My dear, I went for the steal
Maybe it was rushed
Oh, my crush
I gotta crush

I suppose that I could hold it in
But you excite my every cell
Sources say that senses are your friend
My senses say that I should tell
You that I'm not ashamed
you might just feel the same

but you have to try it
if you're ever really gonna know
my dear, i went for the steal
maybe it was rushed
oh, my crush
I gotta crush

I want to
I need to
I have to
I need you so much
It's your touch
Girl you're too much and I cant control it
You got me all over the road

My deal
Ill went for the steal
Maybe it was rough
Oh, my crush
Damaging me soul
You blew me up but I don't mind
It just gets better with time

So do you x3
Oh, my crush