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i wish there was a word for the feeling where the pictures in my head are so big, so lush, so lavish, so delicious, that my hands start to shake and i get SO SCARED that i wont get the opportunity to build them all before i go. my chest constricts with the weight of it, my eyes well up, and suddenly the world looks so, so vast and i feel so incredibly tiny. it's the earliest feeling i remember. its the feeling that has shaped every moment of my life up until this moment. it's the feeling that drives me forward. it has made me who i am.