My Weekend (unedited)
Friday night was nice. I got to hang out with a nice chap from Easton. We ate at Lily’s on the Canal in New Hope. I had some chicken and risotto dish that was nummy. The conversation was neat. I didn’t agree with him on philosophical points, but enjoyed his zest for life. And, of course, appreciated the fact that he even thought.
Saturday morning I woke up TOO early by my DARLING mother. “Jake, I’m about ten minutes from your place. We need to go see Heather.” I was having a great dream about someone lovely and wham! - I had to be up and perky. Time to be a sincere cheerleader. My dad and mom were both in great spirits. “Oh your place looks so nice,” mom remarked.
We dashed out and headed over to Fox Chase. I like going there. The nurses are nice and I don’t feel like it’s a hospital. Heather has lost a lot of weight and looks like a cancer patient for sure, now. Before I had hope she’d continue to look like herself. But they flew a doctor from Texas that is experimenting with treatment options. And is so thin and in constant pain. On top of that, she is having issues keeping her marriage and kids happily together. “I don’t think mommy will ever come home, “ Melanie once said. We spent a few hours there and she started to get very bitchy. She especially was angry with me for not visiting her too much. She actually said, “I don’t love you anymore. You used to be my baby brother. I don’t like you.” I was crushed. What could I do? What can I say? Can I tell her that I’ve been busy and wanted to visit more? Certainly not. I just remained calm and reassured her that I’m here and will see her more; and that she still loves me, just doesn’t like me right now.
I then went up to spend time with the family and tried to be cheerful. I wanted to create a different atmosphere. I talked of my challenges and that I wanted to make food. I did homework. We talked, played board games, laughed and bonded. Life was happier and I hoped that some rays of sunshine would push through the dark clouds.
I traveled home and spoke with some friends. I’m fortunate that MySpace has made me popular. Who knew that I’d have hundreds of people viewing my profile, “fan mail”, and exciting possible new friends? Not me. But hey, I’m going with it. I also think it’s wonderful to know that I can have dinner with someone who writes published plays on one night and HOPEFULLY hang out with a professor on the next. I enjoy the idea that my personality appeals to the youngest and oldest. Anyway, I enjoyed the people so far. But this night, I spoke with sister really late. We had our break-through moments and opened ourselves to becoming closer.
Sunday arrived and I woke up early. I did some chores around the house. I dashed up toward Allentown and stopped in Quakertown to visit a friend. I care about this friend and think he’s absolutely brilliant. Yet, I find that he does things that are just silly. I expressed my opinions and insight on his relationship situation. But, I just wish him happiness. I struggle with the want to just smack him and say, “Wake up! Don’t waste your time on so-and-so. You’re so much more and he needs to figure out how wonderful you are on his own. I know you’ll be lonely, but it’s worth it because you’re not alone in the world.” I know I can’t… but I dream.
I got up to Allentown and my sister and mom were asleep. I woke my sister up and planned dinner: haddock and vegetable risotto. We hit up Wegmans (I love this place), got some ingredients and slurped coffee. I figured out risotto requires patience. And I found out that haddock is better made at home.
We had great bonding time. Played with Kayleigh some more. We actually dressed her up in a pumpkin outfit for Halloween. She is so cute! I left and came home. Talked up some friends. And now I’m writing this at 2 AM. So.. this was my weekend.
Saturday morning I woke up TOO early by my DARLING mother. “Jake, I’m about ten minutes from your place. We need to go see Heather.” I was having a great dream about someone lovely and wham! - I had to be up and perky. Time to be a sincere cheerleader. My dad and mom were both in great spirits. “Oh your place looks so nice,” mom remarked.
We dashed out and headed over to Fox Chase. I like going there. The nurses are nice and I don’t feel like it’s a hospital. Heather has lost a lot of weight and looks like a cancer patient for sure, now. Before I had hope she’d continue to look like herself. But they flew a doctor from Texas that is experimenting with treatment options. And is so thin and in constant pain. On top of that, she is having issues keeping her marriage and kids happily together. “I don’t think mommy will ever come home, “ Melanie once said. We spent a few hours there and she started to get very bitchy. She especially was angry with me for not visiting her too much. She actually said, “I don’t love you anymore. You used to be my baby brother. I don’t like you.” I was crushed. What could I do? What can I say? Can I tell her that I’ve been busy and wanted to visit more? Certainly not. I just remained calm and reassured her that I’m here and will see her more; and that she still loves me, just doesn’t like me right now.
I then went up to spend time with the family and tried to be cheerful. I wanted to create a different atmosphere. I talked of my challenges and that I wanted to make food. I did homework. We talked, played board games, laughed and bonded. Life was happier and I hoped that some rays of sunshine would push through the dark clouds.
I traveled home and spoke with some friends. I’m fortunate that MySpace has made me popular. Who knew that I’d have hundreds of people viewing my profile, “fan mail”, and exciting possible new friends? Not me. But hey, I’m going with it. I also think it’s wonderful to know that I can have dinner with someone who writes published plays on one night and HOPEFULLY hang out with a professor on the next. I enjoy the idea that my personality appeals to the youngest and oldest. Anyway, I enjoyed the people so far. But this night, I spoke with sister really late. We had our break-through moments and opened ourselves to becoming closer.
Sunday arrived and I woke up early. I did some chores around the house. I dashed up toward Allentown and stopped in Quakertown to visit a friend. I care about this friend and think he’s absolutely brilliant. Yet, I find that he does things that are just silly. I expressed my opinions and insight on his relationship situation. But, I just wish him happiness. I struggle with the want to just smack him and say, “Wake up! Don’t waste your time on so-and-so. You’re so much more and he needs to figure out how wonderful you are on his own. I know you’ll be lonely, but it’s worth it because you’re not alone in the world.” I know I can’t… but I dream.
I got up to Allentown and my sister and mom were asleep. I woke my sister up and planned dinner: haddock and vegetable risotto. We hit up Wegmans (I love this place), got some ingredients and slurped coffee. I figured out risotto requires patience. And I found out that haddock is better made at home.
We had great bonding time. Played with Kayleigh some more. We actually dressed her up in a pumpkin outfit for Halloween. She is so cute! I left and came home. Talked up some friends. And now I’m writing this at 2 AM. So.. this was my weekend.