New semester
Well, I dreaded this year while also looking forward to it as well. My senior year of college. WHERE DID IT ALL GO???
I was looking forward to it because I knew it would be filled with "lasts". The last time I have "summer vacation", the last time I audition for Dr. Woods, the last time I waste $175 on a CMU parking permit, the last time I worry about signing a lease in Mount Pleasant... lots of things, some good, some not so good, but always fascinating. The concept of something being the "last time" is so interesting. I was very sad about an hour after my orchestra audition when I realized I'd never do that again, in the same way, with the same person (my hero, Woods!). It would never, ever be the same again. But besides sadness in things like that I am sooo excited to see what else life throws at me. Nobody can replace the people here I look up to, but I know that where I go I will always meet new, special people who will not ever replace people like that, but that's not what I would want anyway.
This semester is looking up, so far. I have a job in the making right now (more info later when I find out if it's secured or not). I also got an email from Midland Symphony yesterday to play in the next concert. Yes!! Not only are 2 of the 3 pieces ones I have played before, but they're also doing the Dvorak cello concerto which I'm supposed to be working on this year. Definitely a fun program.
Back to my "lasts". I know I said I was looking forward to the semester because of them, but of course, I was also dreading them. The pressure of trying to keep my grades up (I really want to graduate with honors), trying to tackle a new job, new classes, preparing to graduate and move away from here. My last year at CMU.
My last year at CMU.
How do these things happen? It's so funny. I just realized I'm sitting here thinking I'm sad about time seemingly disappearing from under me, but I noticed I'm smiling. Maybe it's because I know there's nothing wrong with time passing. It's not like it's going to stop, this year will end, next year will end, hey, it happens to everyone. It's not like I'm the only person that time is unfair to, making it go by so fast. And it's not like I don't have things to look forward to!
Brian officially bought the condo and is moving in at the end of the month! It's so cute, I got to see it while I was out there last month. We're already picking out stuff to put in there. It's definitely going to be a nice place. So as soon as I graduate, I'm outta here!! Moving to a new state, being with the person I love more than anyone, and knowing I have brand new opportunities awaiting me. Maybe I'll go back to school, maybe I'll get a job I never thought I'd be good at, you never know. I just know I can't wait!! There are so many open doors...
I was looking forward to it because I knew it would be filled with "lasts". The last time I have "summer vacation", the last time I audition for Dr. Woods, the last time I waste $175 on a CMU parking permit, the last time I worry about signing a lease in Mount Pleasant... lots of things, some good, some not so good, but always fascinating. The concept of something being the "last time" is so interesting. I was very sad about an hour after my orchestra audition when I realized I'd never do that again, in the same way, with the same person (my hero, Woods!). It would never, ever be the same again. But besides sadness in things like that I am sooo excited to see what else life throws at me. Nobody can replace the people here I look up to, but I know that where I go I will always meet new, special people who will not ever replace people like that, but that's not what I would want anyway.
This semester is looking up, so far. I have a job in the making right now (more info later when I find out if it's secured or not). I also got an email from Midland Symphony yesterday to play in the next concert. Yes!! Not only are 2 of the 3 pieces ones I have played before, but they're also doing the Dvorak cello concerto which I'm supposed to be working on this year. Definitely a fun program.
Back to my "lasts". I know I said I was looking forward to the semester because of them, but of course, I was also dreading them. The pressure of trying to keep my grades up (I really want to graduate with honors), trying to tackle a new job, new classes, preparing to graduate and move away from here. My last year at CMU.
My last year at CMU.
How do these things happen? It's so funny. I just realized I'm sitting here thinking I'm sad about time seemingly disappearing from under me, but I noticed I'm smiling. Maybe it's because I know there's nothing wrong with time passing. It's not like it's going to stop, this year will end, next year will end, hey, it happens to everyone. It's not like I'm the only person that time is unfair to, making it go by so fast. And it's not like I don't have things to look forward to!
Brian officially bought the condo and is moving in at the end of the month! It's so cute, I got to see it while I was out there last month. We're already picking out stuff to put in there. It's definitely going to be a nice place. So as soon as I graduate, I'm outta here!! Moving to a new state, being with the person I love more than anyone, and knowing I have brand new opportunities awaiting me. Maybe I'll go back to school, maybe I'll get a job I never thought I'd be good at, you never know. I just know I can't wait!! There are so many open doors...