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Who: Roxas and anyone in TWTNW
What: On the verge of a breakdown after his meeting with Sora, Roxas heads back to TWTNW
When: Right after THIS
Where: The World that Never Was
Warnings: None yet
Status: In progress
Roxas wandered blindly through the passageways of betwixt and between. He didn’t know where he was headed, it just had to be away from hisSora’s house. He’d managed to forget that it wasn’t his house for awhile. He’d set up a home for himself in Twilight Town by forgetting about the feeling of home he had on Destiny Islands. In an effort to get his life back together he’d forgotten what it had felt like to be thrown out. With those thoughts pushed to the side it had been almost like he was just away from home; like he’d grown up and moved out. He’d been fine with that illusion over his face, but going back to the house had thrown the fact that he hadn’t moved out, he’d been forced out not only of the house but the life he’d known for years.
The illusion was gone now. It had taken him months to recover from that the first time, and that had been with help. This time there was nothing to ground him to where and what he was. He shouldn’t have made Axel stay back, he’d been the one to keep him from flying apart the last time; this time he had nothing. He felt like he was somewhere between real and fading. He wasn’t fading back into Sora, but he also wasn’t entirely his own person.
Of all the people and circumstances to blame for how he felt; he blamed Sora. Why wouldn’t he care? He cared about everyone else, but he wouldn’t even try to help his other? It wasn’t fair, that Roxas as only a shadow of Sora had to deal with everything Sora thought and felt, unless he actively fought against it, but Sora had no problem ignoring his thoughts. He’d been happy as Sora, but he couldn’t be Sora anymore. Sora couldn’t or wouldn’t understand what all of this felt like to him. He wanted to just push it aside like he had before, but without anything to ground him there was no way to do that.
So he wandered through betwixt and between not really knowing where to go. He couldn’t go back to Twilight Town yet. He’d set up a home there, going back now when he felt like nothing was his would shatter that thought. It had been the same the last time; he was happy later after being there, but if Axel had brought him there first it would have only made things worse.
All he knew was that he needed someplace or someone to ground him. He didn’t even realize his path had taken him to The World That Never Was until he stepped out of the portal and into the dark city. He stood at the edge of the city right before the blindingly white castle. Sora had been here, but he hadn’t explored all of it. There were large amounts of places he’d never seen. Roxas started heading for those places; maybe even his old room if his feet took him there. He knew the other nobodies may not be thrilled to see him there, but he didn’t care right now. He didn’t care what the other nobodies thought, or what they did. He just cared that right now this place felt like his and not Sora’s.
What: On the verge of a breakdown after his meeting with Sora, Roxas heads back to TWTNW
When: Right after THIS
Where: The World that Never Was
Warnings: None yet
Status: In progress
Roxas wandered blindly through the passageways of betwixt and between. He didn’t know where he was headed, it just had to be away from hisSora’s house. He’d managed to forget that it wasn’t his house for awhile. He’d set up a home for himself in Twilight Town by forgetting about the feeling of home he had on Destiny Islands. In an effort to get his life back together he’d forgotten what it had felt like to be thrown out. With those thoughts pushed to the side it had been almost like he was just away from home; like he’d grown up and moved out. He’d been fine with that illusion over his face, but going back to the house had thrown the fact that he hadn’t moved out, he’d been forced out not only of the house but the life he’d known for years.
The illusion was gone now. It had taken him months to recover from that the first time, and that had been with help. This time there was nothing to ground him to where and what he was. He shouldn’t have made Axel stay back, he’d been the one to keep him from flying apart the last time; this time he had nothing. He felt like he was somewhere between real and fading. He wasn’t fading back into Sora, but he also wasn’t entirely his own person.
Of all the people and circumstances to blame for how he felt; he blamed Sora. Why wouldn’t he care? He cared about everyone else, but he wouldn’t even try to help his other? It wasn’t fair, that Roxas as only a shadow of Sora had to deal with everything Sora thought and felt, unless he actively fought against it, but Sora had no problem ignoring his thoughts. He’d been happy as Sora, but he couldn’t be Sora anymore. Sora couldn’t or wouldn’t understand what all of this felt like to him. He wanted to just push it aside like he had before, but without anything to ground him there was no way to do that.
So he wandered through betwixt and between not really knowing where to go. He couldn’t go back to Twilight Town yet. He’d set up a home there, going back now when he felt like nothing was his would shatter that thought. It had been the same the last time; he was happy later after being there, but if Axel had brought him there first it would have only made things worse.
All he knew was that he needed someplace or someone to ground him. He didn’t even realize his path had taken him to The World That Never Was until he stepped out of the portal and into the dark city. He stood at the edge of the city right before the blindingly white castle. Sora had been here, but he hadn’t explored all of it. There were large amounts of places he’d never seen. Roxas started heading for those places; maybe even his old room if his feet took him there. He knew the other nobodies may not be thrilled to see him there, but he didn’t care right now. He didn’t care what the other nobodies thought, or what they did. He just cared that right now this place felt like his and not Sora’s.