[Private to Lou]
Leave it to me to concern myself with something minor while questionable Digimon are roaming the streets, but I'm conflicted about using this LiveJournal to (re)connect to other Chosen Children.
I don't have a lot of friends. But the ones in recent memory (you, family, Solarmon, basketball teammates, to name a few) have all been good, deep friendships. One of the reasons I have such few friends is because I have trouble committing to....what do you call it....superficial friendships? They're almost unavoidable, I know; everyone can't be best friends with everyone. But I guess I don't have the social maturity required to only have a "passing interest" in a friend's matters. It's emotionally taxing to put so much interest in absolutely everyone's safety.
I suppose this mysterious Digimon stuff isn't helping.
I'm pretty sure this makes me paranoid and selfish. I kind of feel like developing at least a select number of friendships might be the right remedy, but even then, I feel like I'm being unfair to those that I don't talk to as much. I suppose I'm trying to alter a process that only works well naturally, at least from a sociological standpoint. It's such an odd thing to think about. Probably because I'm not supposed to think about it.
Is any of this understandable? I feel like a dose of philosophical banter would calm the storm in my head.
I don't have a lot of friends. But the ones in recent memory (you, family, Solarmon, basketball teammates, to name a few) have all been good, deep friendships. One of the reasons I have such few friends is because I have trouble committing to....what do you call it....superficial friendships? They're almost unavoidable, I know; everyone can't be best friends with everyone. But I guess I don't have the social maturity required to only have a "passing interest" in a friend's matters. It's emotionally taxing to put so much interest in absolutely everyone's safety.
I suppose this mysterious Digimon stuff isn't helping.
I'm pretty sure this makes me paranoid and selfish. I kind of feel like developing at least a select number of friendships might be the right remedy, but even then, I feel like I'm being unfair to those that I don't talk to as much. I suppose I'm trying to alter a process that only works well naturally, at least from a sociological standpoint. It's such an odd thing to think about. Probably because I'm not supposed to think about it.
Is any of this understandable? I feel like a dose of philosophical banter would calm the storm in my head.