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i havent updated in ages since i havent been online in ages due to the play and stuff...so here i am to summarize everything that has been going on in the life of moi lately...
so this past weekend was the play. it was amazing and hysterical. thursday i watched it with danielle and almost peed myself because it was so funny. idk why but i was like in hysterics. everyone was so amazing. i was really suprised because at rehersals, the play looked disastrous...cannot tell a lie. then friday was my cast and we did really good, i think, i dont know because i didnt watch it obviously but i think it was amazing anyway. then we went to fridays and it was really crowded and they had to separate us and all this shit. we had to wait for ages to get a table and we were still separated. so i was already insanely tired and that only made it worse...and of course i exploded like the psycho bitch that i can be because everyone was being really loud and clapping and stuff and there were people trying to eat or w/e like 2 inches away from us so i felt like it wasnt curtious to scream and clap. but instead of saying that calmly like a normal human being, i slightly exploded at amanda and everyone. it was bad. but oh well hopefully everyone got over it. it ended up being really fun anyway because i was surrounded by all the people whom i adore...then saturday we did the show again and all of the "alumni" came!!!!!!!!! it was the most exciting thing EVER. i was going to warm ups and i saw renee and randi peaking into the room and i almost cried out of happiness. i LOVE them and nothing is the same without all the seniors that left last year and it never will be the same. tear. and i saw all the boys like richie and ads and mark and john and josh. YAY. it was really really wonderfully joyous. BUT john was sick. the poor dear. but he still had the most amazing male voice in the show. except now im sick and its his fault i descided. in between shows we listened to the speeches and got our trophies and stuff. i was slightly pissed/bitter when they called me up b/c im always being told that i dont do my job, and, frankly, it pisses the fuck out of me. even if its supposedly a joke, its not funny and i hate it. i need to vent even though i have a million times. so anyway they said some bs abt how im a good treasurer and shit even though i know they dont think its true because im constantly critisized and told that i dont do my job...so i went up and got my thing and i didnt feel happy or proud or anything like that, just pissed. like i know i fucking do my job and i dont need people to tell me that im doing it, but is it really necessary to constantly say that i dont do it? really cuz i dont think it is. WHATEVERRRR uy it makes me so heated i cant even tell you. like i literally CANT STAND IT. it makes me want to rip the damn hair out of my head....ANYWAY moving on...sat. night me and danielle watched the play with all the college kids. everyone was amazing once again. then was the cast party at leeskins house. i LOVED it. even though it was desert (or is it dessert?) weathers in her house. at the party, of course was the first time i realized how much i really love evryone in tg. i really take it for granted because its so different this year and i like cant accept that. but it really ended up being okay and even amazing at times. its really depressing not having rehersal after school anymore and not seeing the same wondrous faces that i love. its just not right to be home like anytime before 4:30. i LOVE tggg and i hate calling it "tg" idk why. but whatever it is, i love it more than anythingggg. it never seems as amazing at the time, but looking back on it, it really was. i feel like thats just because we only remember the good times and forget all the bad times because beleive me i know there were bad times, but i like to tell myself that the good things override the bad things. and alsooo besides jacqueline miller-weiss, i have met all of my best friends and favorite people from school in tg. if it wasnt for that, i would only have one best friend in school...how sorry would that be? k, that pretty much sums it up i think. lately i have been a constantly pissed evil person but i try not to be...but i cant be fake and im not going to lie and say that eveyrthing is perfect and blablabla because its not. the end thanks bye.
so this past weekend was the play. it was amazing and hysterical. thursday i watched it with danielle and almost peed myself because it was so funny. idk why but i was like in hysterics. everyone was so amazing. i was really suprised because at rehersals, the play looked disastrous...cannot tell a lie. then friday was my cast and we did really good, i think, i dont know because i didnt watch it obviously but i think it was amazing anyway. then we went to fridays and it was really crowded and they had to separate us and all this shit. we had to wait for ages to get a table and we were still separated. so i was already insanely tired and that only made it worse...and of course i exploded like the psycho bitch that i can be because everyone was being really loud and clapping and stuff and there were people trying to eat or w/e like 2 inches away from us so i felt like it wasnt curtious to scream and clap. but instead of saying that calmly like a normal human being, i slightly exploded at amanda and everyone. it was bad. but oh well hopefully everyone got over it. it ended up being really fun anyway because i was surrounded by all the people whom i adore...then saturday we did the show again and all of the "alumni" came!!!!!!!!! it was the most exciting thing EVER. i was going to warm ups and i saw renee and randi peaking into the room and i almost cried out of happiness. i LOVE them and nothing is the same without all the seniors that left last year and it never will be the same. tear. and i saw all the boys like richie and ads and mark and john and josh. YAY. it was really really wonderfully joyous. BUT john was sick. the poor dear. but he still had the most amazing male voice in the show. except now im sick and its his fault i descided. in between shows we listened to the speeches and got our trophies and stuff. i was slightly pissed/bitter when they called me up b/c im always being told that i dont do my job, and, frankly, it pisses the fuck out of me. even if its supposedly a joke, its not funny and i hate it. i need to vent even though i have a million times. so anyway they said some bs abt how im a good treasurer and shit even though i know they dont think its true because im constantly critisized and told that i dont do my job...so i went up and got my thing and i didnt feel happy or proud or anything like that, just pissed. like i know i fucking do my job and i dont need people to tell me that im doing it, but is it really necessary to constantly say that i dont do it? really cuz i dont think it is. WHATEVERRRR uy it makes me so heated i cant even tell you. like i literally CANT STAND IT. it makes me want to rip the damn hair out of my head....ANYWAY moving on...sat. night me and danielle watched the play with all the college kids. everyone was amazing once again. then was the cast party at leeskins house. i LOVED it. even though it was desert (or is it dessert?) weathers in her house. at the party, of course was the first time i realized how much i really love evryone in tg. i really take it for granted because its so different this year and i like cant accept that. but it really ended up being okay and even amazing at times. its really depressing not having rehersal after school anymore and not seeing the same wondrous faces that i love. its just not right to be home like anytime before 4:30. i LOVE tggg and i hate calling it "tg" idk why. but whatever it is, i love it more than anythingggg. it never seems as amazing at the time, but looking back on it, it really was. i feel like thats just because we only remember the good times and forget all the bad times because beleive me i know there were bad times, but i like to tell myself that the good things override the bad things. and alsooo besides jacqueline miller-weiss, i have met all of my best friends and favorite people from school in tg. if it wasnt for that, i would only have one best friend in school...how sorry would that be? k, that pretty much sums it up i think. lately i have been a constantly pissed evil person but i try not to be...but i cant be fake and im not going to lie and say that eveyrthing is perfect and blablabla because its not. the end thanks bye.