Another topic that I could ramble on and on and on about! I maintain a blog that isn't read by anyone - rather, a written journal that I keep to myself. I also maintain several blogs that are anonymous. Some people have figured out the identity but then again, those channels were for my future. I have a vast web presence - far more vast from before we worked together - so I am worried about the "Google search" that HR performs when recruiting.
I love what you say here and your audience seems to be completely honest back to you. With that said, I still think there's a point in writing without an audience. I can bet that you and I have been writing on a blog for ages now and from doing this for so long, we automatically write for an audience. Do you know how weird it is to write without that presence? At that point, it becomes documentation.
I was wondering... Do you find a form of relief when you blog? I used to. (Actually, I still do but it's not that substantial anymore.) I used to be a lot more honest online but now I feel like I've put a huge filter on myself. I only want to share what I want to sell myself on. The truth is that I am a lot more emo than I'd like to lead on.
You know, I used to keep a paper journal... from the time I was about 11 until I was about 22. And then I stopped, completely. I'm not sure why. I remember being in counseling for a while and talking about it with her, and she said something to the effect of, "the person you spoke to when you were writing... that was like a friend to you. Do you miss her?" I know that sounds weird but honestly the answer was, "yes." I've tried to pick it up again now and then but I can't seem to get back into it.
I think it was something I did to combat loneliness and boredom... as life's gone on, I've gotten so much busier, and become part of this long-term relationship... I don't know, it just seemed like I got too busy for it. Mentally, I guess.
I'm not sure if I find relief from it anymore. I used to, back when I was younger. I think that was back when I didn't care quite as much what other people thought. I was probably more honest.
I don't mean to imply that I'm dishonest here, at all. More just that sometimes what I really want my blog to be is a place where I can come and just kind of vent when I'm frustrated or confused... and the older I get, the less polite that feels. If I read a few news articles about religion that start to make me feel frustrated, for example, I kind of want to be able to run here and say, "for the love of the Flying Spaghetti Monster, I really don't get how anyone can believe this." But I don't, because it's not nice, and I don't want to offend anyone. But at what point do I sacrifice my honesty, or give up my ownership of this blog as my space, you know?
(For the record, religion is just an easy example to use... I actually wouldn't really hesitate to discuss religion and I usually wouldn't be inclined to be rude about it, lol.)
I love what you say here and your audience seems to be completely honest back to you. With that said, I still think there's a point in writing without an audience. I can bet that you and I have been writing on a blog for ages now and from doing this for so long, we automatically write for an audience. Do you know how weird it is to write without that presence? At that point, it becomes documentation.
I was wondering... Do you find a form of relief when you blog? I used to. (Actually, I still do but it's not that substantial anymore.) I used to be a lot more honest online but now I feel like I've put a huge filter on myself. I only want to share what I want to sell myself on. The truth is that I am a lot more emo than I'd like to lead on.
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I think it was something I did to combat loneliness and boredom... as life's gone on, I've gotten so much busier, and become part of this long-term relationship... I don't know, it just seemed like I got too busy for it. Mentally, I guess.
I'm not sure if I find relief from it anymore. I used to, back when I was younger. I think that was back when I didn't care quite as much what other people thought. I was probably more honest.
I don't mean to imply that I'm dishonest here, at all. More just that sometimes what I really want my blog to be is a place where I can come and just kind of vent when I'm frustrated or confused... and the older I get, the less polite that feels. If I read a few news articles about religion that start to make me feel frustrated, for example, I kind of want to be able to run here and say, "for the love of the Flying Spaghetti Monster, I really don't get how anyone can believe this." But I don't, because it's not nice, and I don't want to offend anyone. But at what point do I sacrifice my honesty, or give up my ownership of this blog as my space, you know?
(For the record, religion is just an easy example to use... I actually wouldn't really hesitate to discuss religion and I usually wouldn't be inclined to be rude about it, lol.)
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