just, not good.
savanna is in louisiana and i wish she was home so i could talk to her
my house has become a pernament war-zone.
ive never heard so much yelling or cursing
everything is bad. everything is wrong.
im miserable
i feel like i must exhaust her sometimes
and not just her. heath, everyone.
i cant help my situation much but they must get tired of my problems
and lately all i seem to swim through is problems
so i go to the people who i love and i know they do their best to be everything a friend is suppose to be, but there is only so much sympathy and listening that one person can give and i understand that.
i feel like ive worn out not only myself, but the people i love
and now im alone.
i cant keep asking people to help me when im down and out
and it looks like things are not going to be looking up any time soon
so, im sorry.
im sorry if i need comforting too often
ben died and i needed support
i lost people i loved and i needed support
my home is a wreck and i need support
everything bad happens at once and i cant handle it
the last thing i need to do is ask someone else to help me with my load
im only bringing them down, and that is selfish
i try to handle my shit on my own...i really do
but sometimes im just not strong enough and i hate that
i just hate my situation
work is the only thing that is keeping me from drowning right now
i love my job and i love my boss and i love my coworkers
at least i have that going for me
im wiped.