Still on the planet... I think.
I'm still alive. Most of the time, anyway.
WORK:
Was contemplating looking for another job, because I felt like I was in a never ending rut at mine. planned on putting in resume's last night. Yesterday, my boss hunted me down and told me I was getting a team again.
Upside? Chance for bonuses. Not to mention I can stop having to tell the incredibly sweet employees who tell me they are willing to switch their schedules to WHATEVER they have to in order to be on my team, that I don't have one. Now we will see just how serious they are, lol. Another upside is the hours. Going back to my late 1:30pm-10pm shift. So I don't have to deal with getting rides hours before my shift, or riding the damn bus. I have multiple choices for rides at this time. Plus I can go out after work with everybody, without dying the next day from lack of sleep.
Downside? days off SUCK! Have Mondays and Tuesdays off. This means no seeing my family. also means no seeing most of my friends. Even then ones at work have different days off with the exception of two of them. Those two each have one day off that I do. But for the most part I am going to be bored out of my ever loving MIND on my days off. Ugh.
FAMILY:
Good for the most part. My sister and I have become extremely close, which is awesome. I have always loved her, but unfortunately I was the unwanted little sister. So truly, no lies or exaggeration, I was hated for many years. Over the last few months though, ever since she split with her husband, she and I ahve gotten really close. She has come up here and spent the weekend with me a few times, and I have gone down there and done the same. WE talk at least once a day if not more. Just... nice.
Mom and Dad are doing okay, I guess. Typical every time they get their feet on the ground, something kicks them down again. But they are living life as best they can.
FRIENDS:
Heh, this is the one I am the most confused on, I guess. Feeling... Lost, lately. Not sure who is really there and who is not. Who WANTS to be, and who doesn't. Torn between wanting to show that I am willing to put effort in. But also not wanting to force my presense on anybody. So I end up being completely indecisive and don't go in either direction. Go me. With the exception of a few which I am so incredibly grateful for, I truly don't know what is what anymore. It is sad. This used to be the one area I had constants in, no matter what else was falling down around me. Now, I find myself just wanting to hole up more and more. That way I don't piss someone off, or get disappointed myself. I really am tired of feeling alone in the middle of a group. Some would say that is my fault. But I wonder if they realise just how friendly they are with eachother. And how different it is when I try... The difference almost hurts more than just staying out by my own choice. I never ever thought I would be in this place.
LIFE:
On the whole, life is okay. just living it day to day. My birthday is coming up next weekend. Tuesday, my friend Maranette and I are having a joint birthday party at our local hangout. Hope to be a lot of fun.
Next weekend, I am spending my last weekend days of freedom down in Albany. My sister and I, as well as whoever else wants to join, are going to the Shrewsbury Renaissance Faire on the 9th and 10th. I have loved this faire for years, so glad I am going again. Fun, entertaining people, great shows, wonderful booths with gorgeous items (sharp pointy objects...mmmmm). Yes, happy.
My birthday is actually on the following monday. Was planning on having to work so did not have anything going that day. Now I have both the 11th and 12th off, so I dunno if I am going to stay down in Albany or what. If somebody wants to do something or hang out, let me know. I'm up for whatever, if you are up for hanging out on those days.
Anyway... Hope you are all doing okay... Sorry, I disappeared for a while.
WORK:
Was contemplating looking for another job, because I felt like I was in a never ending rut at mine. planned on putting in resume's last night. Yesterday, my boss hunted me down and told me I was getting a team again.
Upside? Chance for bonuses. Not to mention I can stop having to tell the incredibly sweet employees who tell me they are willing to switch their schedules to WHATEVER they have to in order to be on my team, that I don't have one. Now we will see just how serious they are, lol. Another upside is the hours. Going back to my late 1:30pm-10pm shift. So I don't have to deal with getting rides hours before my shift, or riding the damn bus. I have multiple choices for rides at this time. Plus I can go out after work with everybody, without dying the next day from lack of sleep.
Downside? days off SUCK! Have Mondays and Tuesdays off. This means no seeing my family. also means no seeing most of my friends. Even then ones at work have different days off with the exception of two of them. Those two each have one day off that I do. But for the most part I am going to be bored out of my ever loving MIND on my days off. Ugh.
FAMILY:
Good for the most part. My sister and I have become extremely close, which is awesome. I have always loved her, but unfortunately I was the unwanted little sister. So truly, no lies or exaggeration, I was hated for many years. Over the last few months though, ever since she split with her husband, she and I ahve gotten really close. She has come up here and spent the weekend with me a few times, and I have gone down there and done the same. WE talk at least once a day if not more. Just... nice.
Mom and Dad are doing okay, I guess. Typical every time they get their feet on the ground, something kicks them down again. But they are living life as best they can.
FRIENDS:
Heh, this is the one I am the most confused on, I guess. Feeling... Lost, lately. Not sure who is really there and who is not. Who WANTS to be, and who doesn't. Torn between wanting to show that I am willing to put effort in. But also not wanting to force my presense on anybody. So I end up being completely indecisive and don't go in either direction. Go me. With the exception of a few which I am so incredibly grateful for, I truly don't know what is what anymore. It is sad. This used to be the one area I had constants in, no matter what else was falling down around me. Now, I find myself just wanting to hole up more and more. That way I don't piss someone off, or get disappointed myself. I really am tired of feeling alone in the middle of a group. Some would say that is my fault. But I wonder if they realise just how friendly they are with eachother. And how different it is when I try... The difference almost hurts more than just staying out by my own choice. I never ever thought I would be in this place.
LIFE:
On the whole, life is okay. just living it day to day. My birthday is coming up next weekend. Tuesday, my friend Maranette and I are having a joint birthday party at our local hangout. Hope to be a lot of fun.
Next weekend, I am spending my last weekend days of freedom down in Albany. My sister and I, as well as whoever else wants to join, are going to the Shrewsbury Renaissance Faire on the 9th and 10th. I have loved this faire for years, so glad I am going again. Fun, entertaining people, great shows, wonderful booths with gorgeous items (sharp pointy objects...mmmmm). Yes, happy.
My birthday is actually on the following monday. Was planning on having to work so did not have anything going that day. Now I have both the 11th and 12th off, so I dunno if I am going to stay down in Albany or what. If somebody wants to do something or hang out, let me know. I'm up for whatever, if you are up for hanging out on those days.
Anyway... Hope you are all doing okay... Sorry, I disappeared for a while.