Update
I feel: 
relieved
I had a major, big time, huge ass scare last week and this week. Lewis and I weren't doing too well last week. He went MIA on me for like a week then when he finally gets on, he tells me there was another girl and that he didn't deserve me and we actually broke up for all of 5 mintues. It terrified me, I thought I had lost the love of my life.
We finally both calmed down and talked about us and where we were headed together. We decided to postpone our engagement and our wedding until we've been together longer; we did get engaged 3 months into our relationship. We are going to be ok, at least I hope we are. Then today, after another week of being MIA, I finally got to talk to him about us again and asked him if he wanted to be with me and he said yes of course he did. I told him I was trying to do something bad and we both decided that I'm going to save money over the next few months and move over there when I have the money to. We also came to the conclusion that we're both going insane without each other. He even threatened to hurt himself, I really hope he doesn't.
Anyway, I think I'm done, I just hope Lewis and I are alright.
relieved
I had a major, big time, huge ass scare last week and this week. Lewis and I weren't doing too well last week. He went MIA on me for like a week then when he finally gets on, he tells me there was another girl and that he didn't deserve me and we actually broke up for all of 5 mintues. It terrified me, I thought I had lost the love of my life.
We finally both calmed down and talked about us and where we were headed together. We decided to postpone our engagement and our wedding until we've been together longer; we did get engaged 3 months into our relationship. We are going to be ok, at least I hope we are. Then today, after another week of being MIA, I finally got to talk to him about us again and asked him if he wanted to be with me and he said yes of course he did. I told him I was trying to do something bad and we both decided that I'm going to save money over the next few months and move over there when I have the money to. We also came to the conclusion that we're both going insane without each other. He even threatened to hurt himself, I really hope he doesn't.
Anyway, I think I'm done, I just hope Lewis and I are alright.