Rant
so yeah, ive been really weird and grumpy and shit lately...i really dont know why.....its just been my mood, when im at work at stuff it turns off and i can be a happy person.....but with everyone ive just been like horrible.....i'm so sick of living my life.....dont worry yall i aint going to kill myself....its just that i feel like my friends, family, coworkers, everyone is just so distant...i miss everyone and i love hanging out with you guys and it just seems like i dont get to very much anymore and it upsets me....dont you ever just get sick of living the same life day in day out...same thing, never changes.....its so annoying.....it makes me want to just pack up my shit and leave....never come back....leave everything, everyone behind...start new.....ive been having a really hard time with brian lately....he keeps asking me and molly if he can date her and it makes me think that the reason taht we ended was because he wanted to get with her and that he just wants to throw everything that we had, the love, the passion, the sex and kisses, the romantic moments....everything away....i mean, i have all reason to be mad, right? like i just dont understand why he wants to date her....i told him if all he was looking for was booty that he could go somehwere else for it...nobody wanted it around here.....him and i had a wonderful 4 hour conversation last week and then he had to ruin it by continuing to ask me why he couldn't date molly.....why the hell is he still hurting me after we've been done for a while now.....oh and when him and i were screwing around he kept telling me that he loved me and he could see us being together in the future and stuff...then he goes and accusses me of being the start of my pain b/c he was just going with the flow that night and telling me what i wanted to hear so that he could get what he wanted.....then he ended it after it going on for like what? 10 months or so?? and tells me that he realizes that we arent meant for each other and that he was just leading me on to get what he wanted.....what an asshole....god, i am so pissed off at everyone and everything right now....i feel like i dont even want to be around people but if im not the i'll get even worse.....OH to top things off, TyTy had his birthday celebration last night...molly went and celebrated....without me....tyty, darrel, BRIAN, diddlenuts, nick, and a bunch of tyty's friends were there....who wasn't? ME! tyty and i have known each other for close to 2 years....molly claims he tried to call me....when i called him he didnt mention it to me at all.....why am i thinking she was invited and not me? BRIAN and his stupid fucking ass....god i just want to castrate him right now....cut everything off, fry it and then force feed it to him.......ugh......i also got an email from this girl heather claiming to be christopher shanes ex and she was telling me stuff that sounded a lot like him but when i confronted him about it he completely denied everything and then was like christing, baby i love you so much....blah blah blah.....im so sick and tired of guys, they all need to die and burn and rot in hell.......not frustration here, eh?i really need a drink or something....i need to space out and let everything just roll off of me for a while....i still really hate guys though!!!! sorry if this is offensive or whatever to anyone