I think perhaps I may be crazy.

[cemeterytourist]

So today I had my neurology appointment, and instead of adjusting my medication, ordering something new, giving me some sort of important insight on what is going on with my head, he took me off all my medication and said that all my tests came back negative, however I am in fact having a migraine, but it is resistant to medication and I should see a psychiatrist because my migraine is most certainly due to depression. (this is what he said) However I have suffered from depression for all of my teenage and adult years and only did a medication resistant migraine start with in the last 4 plus months. Now this doctor has been specializing in headaches for longer then I have been alive, and I do trust his opinion but to me this does not make any sense. I know I do not have meningitis, brain tumors, other cancers... but...  I am 23 with high blood pressure, I dont consume tons of salt, infact I am not much of a fan of salt, I may be slightly over weight but I do not fall into being obese. I get paralyzing migraines with aura, occasionally I go blind in one eye, I am in hellish pain and he accredits this to stress and depression? Now I do understand that a psychiatrist can prescribe medication, perhaps find a non migraine related medication that could help, they could help deal with my sleep issues, help with my stress level, and give me pain medication if need be but still, stress and depression,  if this is the case, why did this all of a sudden appear after so many years of being stressed and depressed and headache symptom free??? Am I fucking crazy? Should I seek another opinion?


I am going to follow his advise and seek a psychiatrist but I am annoyed that I got no answers and was taken off my medicaiton, while it had no real effect, and acutally caused some minor but irritating side effects as well, it did minorly take the edge off. I am back at square one.  I am back at square one with an insane headache that is growing worse as I sit here looking at my screen. I just dont know what to do. However, dont get me wrong, I am happy that nothing is obviously wrong with me, and I do have a for sure diagnosis of having major migraine with aura disorder, it still doesnt help to know that there is nothing I can do about it, but sit here on my livejournal and whine about it, and or talk to a psychiatrist about my problems. Blah.

I want to curl up in a ball and sleep for as long as I can.