everything has changed!
oh my God! i haven't wrote in this in ages, & i don't even have the time to start writing like this again. i figured (if anyone cared) i would update this to give an update on my life. :)
i'm 18 (19 next month) now; i've graduated high school & i'm in college & i work. i'm majoring in business administration with a minor of oit medical option. i've been on the dean's list & i plan to stay there. my parents are now divorced & have been for 2 & a half, almost 3 years now .. man, time goes by fast. i live in south williamson, a few houses before you get to the mexican restaurant in a house that i didn't even notice was here until we bought it, lol. i have my dog, my baby kasey still, but i left my cats (just pooh bear & chunk now) with my dad. i have a cat, though, that chris got for me; she's himalayan & siamese, & her name is pookie. she's so wonderful :) i love my kitty. anyway ..
i'm also engaged to be married to christopher michael ball! after all these years of waiting, dreaming & hoping, it's finally here. lol. i told you all it would happen ;) we've been together for almost 3 years, & we will be getting married in 3 months (july 19th). he's my everything .. he's stuck by me through everything & i will never be able to repay him. he is one of the most wonderful people i've ever met!
i have new best friends now. you have cristin & mandy, who have always been there. karissa came in the picture around my junior year, & i love them dearly. fallon came into play my senior year (thankyou mr. fackin' anderson, though i hate your guts ..), & she's pretty much been my life since then. then there's hollie :) we're pretty much the same, just in different bodies! i've never met someone who has been through nearly half the things i have - it's so wonderful to have someone i can relate to! i still have my brother, greg, though. he's never leaving, thank God. i love him so much. he's even going to be a 'man of honor' in my wedding! i'm not friends with most of my old friends (particularly one ..) because they were pollution. lol .. not even joking. nothing but garbage. my life has been so much better & so much more peaceful without them, & i hate to say that, but it's the truth. they, besides chris, are pretty much the only constants in my life now (i used your word, karissa :P).
it's actually embarassing to sit here & read everything i'd written, especially about me being in "love" with .. *him*. i kindof just giggle at myself & my face blushes .. that's so embarassing! it's disgusting, too .. he's now a coke addict, & he didn't even graduate high school. what a man, huh?! lol. i just can't believe i thought he was the only one out there for me. it's just so silly .. reading all that, it makes me feel so dumb! i have the best, now, & the only thing i have to thank *him* for it is for fucking up my life so bad that in the process of chris coming in & cleaning it all out for me, made us fall even more for eachother .. made me realize what a true man was & what true love is. my life has been so great since he's came & gone; though i can't say i regret it, because it was a serious lesson learned & i'm glad i learned it then, but i do wish i had made better decisions about the whole situation. he certainly wasn't worth all the drama he caused, that's for damn sure! someone who would always threaten to hit me, who would scream in my face, who would treat me like the shit on the bottom of his shoe, & who would go out & not call for hours (even after he told me i could go with him) - that, compared to a man who opens my doors, pulls out my chairs, wipes my tears away, holds me, holds my hand, kisses me with the most passion, who tells me i'm beautiful & how desirable i am, talks of how fun it will be once we're married & in a place all of our own, someone who takes me anywhere i want to go, buys me anything i want (though i don't use that much. i just ask for food, mainly, lol), & just someone who isn't ashamed to be with me .. i don't know, now, you all, what would you choose?! lol. he's the only reason i've made it this far in life. i love him dearly ..
and also. a big change happened in my life at the end of my senior year .. i dropped my extra weight! i lost 20 lbs, if not more, all for a prom dress & i've kept it off .. & now i'm trying to continue to keep it off for my wedding dress! to get a good idea of how much weight i've lost, i'll tell you this. i wore a size 10 in my junior prom dress .. the only size they had in the prom dress i wanted was a 9. by prom time, i could fit in it just fine; & when i went wedding dress shopping last month, my wedding dress was a size 8. you do the math ;)
but that's pretty much how things have changed. i'm still on myspace, & i'm still around .. i just don't really go out that much because i have a fiance at home to tend to! :)
i'm 18 (19 next month) now; i've graduated high school & i'm in college & i work. i'm majoring in business administration with a minor of oit medical option. i've been on the dean's list & i plan to stay there. my parents are now divorced & have been for 2 & a half, almost 3 years now .. man, time goes by fast. i live in south williamson, a few houses before you get to the mexican restaurant in a house that i didn't even notice was here until we bought it, lol. i have my dog, my baby kasey still, but i left my cats (just pooh bear & chunk now) with my dad. i have a cat, though, that chris got for me; she's himalayan & siamese, & her name is pookie. she's so wonderful :) i love my kitty. anyway ..
i'm also engaged to be married to christopher michael ball! after all these years of waiting, dreaming & hoping, it's finally here. lol. i told you all it would happen ;) we've been together for almost 3 years, & we will be getting married in 3 months (july 19th). he's my everything .. he's stuck by me through everything & i will never be able to repay him. he is one of the most wonderful people i've ever met!
i have new best friends now. you have cristin & mandy, who have always been there. karissa came in the picture around my junior year, & i love them dearly. fallon came into play my senior year (thankyou mr. fackin' anderson, though i hate your guts ..), & she's pretty much been my life since then. then there's hollie :) we're pretty much the same, just in different bodies! i've never met someone who has been through nearly half the things i have - it's so wonderful to have someone i can relate to! i still have my brother, greg, though. he's never leaving, thank God. i love him so much. he's even going to be a 'man of honor' in my wedding! i'm not friends with most of my old friends (particularly one ..) because they were pollution. lol .. not even joking. nothing but garbage. my life has been so much better & so much more peaceful without them, & i hate to say that, but it's the truth. they, besides chris, are pretty much the only constants in my life now (i used your word, karissa :P).
it's actually embarassing to sit here & read everything i'd written, especially about me being in "love" with .. *him*. i kindof just giggle at myself & my face blushes .. that's so embarassing! it's disgusting, too .. he's now a coke addict, & he didn't even graduate high school. what a man, huh?! lol. i just can't believe i thought he was the only one out there for me. it's just so silly .. reading all that, it makes me feel so dumb! i have the best, now, & the only thing i have to thank *him* for it is for fucking up my life so bad that in the process of chris coming in & cleaning it all out for me, made us fall even more for eachother .. made me realize what a true man was & what true love is. my life has been so great since he's came & gone; though i can't say i regret it, because it was a serious lesson learned & i'm glad i learned it then, but i do wish i had made better decisions about the whole situation. he certainly wasn't worth all the drama he caused, that's for damn sure! someone who would always threaten to hit me, who would scream in my face, who would treat me like the shit on the bottom of his shoe, & who would go out & not call for hours (even after he told me i could go with him) - that, compared to a man who opens my doors, pulls out my chairs, wipes my tears away, holds me, holds my hand, kisses me with the most passion, who tells me i'm beautiful & how desirable i am, talks of how fun it will be once we're married & in a place all of our own, someone who takes me anywhere i want to go, buys me anything i want (though i don't use that much. i just ask for food, mainly, lol), & just someone who isn't ashamed to be with me .. i don't know, now, you all, what would you choose?! lol. he's the only reason i've made it this far in life. i love him dearly ..
and also. a big change happened in my life at the end of my senior year .. i dropped my extra weight! i lost 20 lbs, if not more, all for a prom dress & i've kept it off .. & now i'm trying to continue to keep it off for my wedding dress! to get a good idea of how much weight i've lost, i'll tell you this. i wore a size 10 in my junior prom dress .. the only size they had in the prom dress i wanted was a 9. by prom time, i could fit in it just fine; & when i went wedding dress shopping last month, my wedding dress was a size 8. you do the math ;)
but that's pretty much how things have changed. i'm still on myspace, & i'm still around .. i just don't really go out that much because i have a fiance at home to tend to! :)