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I find it funny how i find more things out about a person i dated when i have no contact with them then when i was actully with them..Hole sections of there life they told me happend i come to find out from people close to them actully never happend...Probably an old football injury....I dont see a reason why someone would do that, i mean do they hate themselves so much that they cant just let there past be there past & not have to make up some huge detailed story that sounds like something out of a Tom Clancy novel & probably is taken from one...I just think its sad & i really do pity them...To have it be so awful to just be normal...Have to need an exuce to be fucked up when the rest of us dont really have exuces to be mental we just are & we expect people that were close to accept that fact...tsk tsk to bad I just am glad its finally out & that everyone will have light shed on the subject & realize that it is all a pack of lies like ive known & some other select few people have known as well...Its so sad im not even mad...I wonder what a person with a made up past sees when they look in the mirror...The person they know is actully behind the elaborte storys & the overly enthusiastic outward protrail of paranoia...Or do they see nothing,someone elses life....I wonder if the person looks at the people who have acutlly served this country & put there life on the line & actully do have severe mental trama but hide it because thats what they were trained to do & i wonder if he envys them, for their courage to take a stand & do this wonderful service but not brag about how much they did that they shouldnt really be talking about or actully do wake up at night thinking there back there because a slam of the door not just because there a light sleeper & like the attention it gets them to act that way.....I would never have the balls to serve this country & i respect those that actully do..I just hate how disrespectful it is to pretend your one of those select wonderful people...Ive gotten the chance to know a person who was actully in the armed forces & i feel like my eyes have been opened, the diffrences between the 2 people is freakish...I know what a real man is finally...I hope the person is able to go into the army & find out all the things they actually have to go threw i hope he pisses his pants when he sees what its like to really fight out there & have people die around you then maybe he wont be so quick to make up lies...They better not tell the other army guys this storie because there not stupid they've heard airheads like him before & they'll beat the shit out of him...I just hope that this person that hates themself will actully come clean someday about there past & not have to say there from a diffrent country to make them feel cool or that they were something & did something that coudnt be farther from the truth....I hope he finds peace when till now he hasnt been able to.....Im just glad i dont have to deal with the lies & neither does anyone i care about because they all know the truth...Or they will soon....Being a hibitual liar must be hard..