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As time goes by, I am getting more and more nervous. My heart is beating so hard that I feel like it might burst out of my chest. I have only felt this way once before when I met Jon's mom. That was six years ago though, so I don't understand. I think that this is just really important to me.
I think I've started to develop panic attacks. I have never been this way before, but over the past few months I've had three of them. I start shaking and can't still my fingers. Then I notice my skin feeling really cold, and my chest beats so hard I can feel it through my rib cage.
And then I start to feel dizzy; almost as if I have hit my head or have a concussion. I can't think straight or focus so I start to panic even more because I don't know what's going on, and I can't stop it. It happens very quickly, and doesn't usually last a long time. I had the first one when I was in Tim Horton's and thought that I lost my money...and then I had another one last night with the nose ring incident..and I'm sort of working through having one right now.
I don't know what this means. I want it to stop. I'm happy. I'm good. I'm just too damn nervous, and probably creating a bigger deal over everything because I hope so much for the good things.
It will be okay. I know it will. I'm coming home now...
+ there goes my pain. there goes my chains. did you see them falling? +
I think I've started to develop panic attacks. I have never been this way before, but over the past few months I've had three of them. I start shaking and can't still my fingers. Then I notice my skin feeling really cold, and my chest beats so hard I can feel it through my rib cage.
And then I start to feel dizzy; almost as if I have hit my head or have a concussion. I can't think straight or focus so I start to panic even more because I don't know what's going on, and I can't stop it. It happens very quickly, and doesn't usually last a long time. I had the first one when I was in Tim Horton's and thought that I lost my money...and then I had another one last night with the nose ring incident..and I'm sort of working through having one right now.
I don't know what this means. I want it to stop. I'm happy. I'm good. I'm just too damn nervous, and probably creating a bigger deal over everything because I hope so much for the good things.
It will be okay. I know it will. I'm coming home now...
+ there goes my pain. there goes my chains. did you see them falling? +