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I forgot how weird it can be hanging around at Shane's house. When it's just us, it's fine. But I always feel like I'm getting "I don't like you" vibes from Joel. He cuts me off if I speak, completely ignores anything I say or ask, he doesn't acknowledge my existence when I arrive or if we're sitting in the same room. It makes me feel really uncomfortable.
It's like I'm the annoying girlfriend that no one else speaks to or something. It makes me want to cry. Shane says Joel does like me, that its all in my head. But I dunno.. I get the feeling that sometimes he just acts somewhat civilly to me because I'm his best friend's girlfriend and he has to or something. Not that avoiding eye contact at all times is civil.
I dunno.. its really a downer. It makes me feel really bad about myself.
It's like I'm the annoying girlfriend that no one else speaks to or something. It makes me want to cry. Shane says Joel does like me, that its all in my head. But I dunno.. I get the feeling that sometimes he just acts somewhat civilly to me because I'm his best friend's girlfriend and he has to or something. Not that avoiding eye contact at all times is civil.
I dunno.. its really a downer. It makes me feel really bad about myself.