It's never warm when he's away...
SO... Shane came back from Sydney early on Friday night which is great. We spent the weekend hanging out and what not. He's leaving again sometime later this week though. Grr. Oh and then he leaves for the states on the 10th of February and doesn't get back until the 28th. Shyeah.. first year in my 19 year existance that I'm attached on Valentine's day and I still don't get to use it to my advantage. Or anyone else's for that matter. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.
So anyways, there will be lots of sad Amy between the 10th and 28th of February. Gosh, I had a cry the other night and he'd only been gone a couple days. I'm not sure if this means I'm weird and creepy or not. I dunno. However, I'm also not sure if its because of the depression. I've been feeling a little down lately. Like.. not all the time but just a whole bunch of little things bother me. Someone will say something really insignificant that normally wouldn't bug me and it just gets to me. And they don't even have to be saying it about me. The other day Kira was looking through some magazine and paying out some chick who was modelling for it. Picking on one attribute or another that she had and I thought to myself that if that was unnattractive then I must be the ugliest thing on earth, that everyone must think I'm really awful looking. It makes me want to cry now just thinking about it. I dunno.. I guess the self esteem issues are coming back. I need something to take up my time... LIKE A JOB FOR EXAMPLE.
I swear to god if someone doesn't hire me soon I'm just going to go completely mad. COMPLETELY INSANE. Gah. This having no money business is fucking irritating, as well as the not having anything to do in the day time. Although, uni starts up again in March. Which I'm kinda worried about because my assignment schedule is really full on this semester. Its gonna be tough. Gah. Life seriously never gets any easier.
So anyways, there will be lots of sad Amy between the 10th and 28th of February. Gosh, I had a cry the other night and he'd only been gone a couple days. I'm not sure if this means I'm weird and creepy or not. I dunno. However, I'm also not sure if its because of the depression. I've been feeling a little down lately. Like.. not all the time but just a whole bunch of little things bother me. Someone will say something really insignificant that normally wouldn't bug me and it just gets to me. And they don't even have to be saying it about me. The other day Kira was looking through some magazine and paying out some chick who was modelling for it. Picking on one attribute or another that she had and I thought to myself that if that was unnattractive then I must be the ugliest thing on earth, that everyone must think I'm really awful looking. It makes me want to cry now just thinking about it. I dunno.. I guess the self esteem issues are coming back. I need something to take up my time... LIKE A JOB FOR EXAMPLE.
I swear to god if someone doesn't hire me soon I'm just going to go completely mad. COMPLETELY INSANE. Gah. This having no money business is fucking irritating, as well as the not having anything to do in the day time. Although, uni starts up again in March. Which I'm kinda worried about because my assignment schedule is really full on this semester. Its gonna be tough. Gah. Life seriously never gets any easier.