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I'm in a bit of a self righteous mood at the moment, and I don't feel that it's unjustified. SO.. I have come to a few decisions just now and I feel the need to jot them down in livejournal so that all three people who read this can have a look see:
- I am who I am. It's impossible for me to change. If you don't like me then go away because I'm not going anywhere.
- If I don't like you and you are still somehow remaining in my life, I plan to get rid of you. I don't have the time nor the care to bother with people who I do not like or who make me feel bad about anything for whatever reason. So should I stop talking to you, hopefully you'll get the idea.
- I am attempting to remove all negative forces from my life. I'm sick of being kept down and I'm going to take it into my own hands for once to do something about this.
- I am trying to stop my depression by just being angry instead. Rather than getting sad everytime something doesn't work out for me or someone lets me down, I'm going to get mad and then do something aggressive to rectify the situation for myself. If this means you get left out, serves you right for pushing me down.
- To those of you who have let me down and continually do so, I'm not going to be your punching bag anymore. I am getting rid of you. I am going to feel good about my life eventually. I am going to tell you where to stick it. I used to think it would be better for you if I left your lives, now I know that it's your loss if you choose to let me down and therefore choose to be left out of my life. I'm not a fantastic person, but I am a decent one. Despite the couple of times I've fallen from grace a little, I have been a good friend and if you can't do the same for me then you are not worth my time or emotion.
- I am going to make my life better and you can't stop me. Just watch me go.