insomnia sucks!!!!!!!!!!!
okay so i can't get to sleep I've treid for 4 hours, and i was planning on going to Labor works this morning cuz in need cash for this month's bills and ALL my other plans for income and other plans crumbled. No Vegas (was my fault), No SteamCon (NOT my fault), No California Family + Solar Convention (no money).. this month has sucked. Got a little bit of yard work done. so looks better. With help from Sam got the computer room cleaned up a bit while mom was gone. Mom finally had someone over to help her clean last saturday!! They made some progress. Although Mom is not going to make the end of month deadline of being moved back into her room. groans. so much stuff going through my head. i can't sleep and feel blahhh. more negative blahhs. i am trying to not focus on what has to be done and look what has been accomplished. but it is very hard. very hard. Jsut so much to do, especially with income being non-flowing. Although I have found a job posting at Pierce College that looks Awesome, So I am going to apply and hope REALLLLLLY Hard. Please send as much positive thoughts as you can. I need this job. tryign to get out of this dark head space... but not easy. Thank you so much to Smeg and Poppy, and Ryan for bearing with me through all this bumpiness and for more reasons I don't feel like typing out. I appreciate you guys so much,
About it for now. may post more later today if I get the chance.
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About it for now. may post more later today if I get the chance.
RR