Lazy Hazy Sunday
I'm back from winter break and in many ways I'm happier than I was the entire last 5 months. It's amazing what a little fling can do for the confidence. I'm finally not angry at my ex-boyfriend and we can finally be friends I think. No one really believed me that all I needed was a fling, but it worked wonders. Rebound flings won't work for everyone, but it worked for me. Needless to say I had a fantastic break.
Currently I'm waiting for classes to start again. I'm pretty excited about what I'm taking this semester. I'm hoping they live up to my expectations.
As far as friends go, I'm really hoping I fit in more than I did. I don't want to feel left out like I did last semester. I don't think I'm a terrible person. Everyone from home loves having me around. I realize I can be annoying, but so can most people at some time or another. I think part of the problem was I was fairly self-confidenceless last semester and no one wants that kind of person around for long. So, now that I feel more confident in myself I'm hoping that will translate into me being more fun to be around. It's not like I'm looking for terribly close friends since I'm only here for a short time, but I would like people I can call up to grab a bite to eat or catch a movie. I just don't feel like I have that. Others here managed to do it in one short semester. I've always been a late bloomer though. It wasn't until almost the end of my freshman year of college that I managed to start making friends. And it wasn't till my sophomore year that I got a really core group. So, it just takes me longer than others. People say I'm not shy and I'm outgoing, which is terribly strange because I was always called shy for most of my life. It's weird to have people say that I'm not because I think that I am in many ways. I'm just not shy with my friends, so that's what they see. I am quite shy with people I don't know yet, mainly because I don't want them to get turned off by me and I'm not sure how they'll react to my personality just yet. I mean everyone here seems friendly, but I still get left out of things. I don't think it's on purpose, I just don't think they think of me. Well, we'll see how it goes. I feel like I'm going to be better this semester.
That was really rambly. I also want to learn to cook more. I only have like one dish that I make well.
Currently I'm waiting for classes to start again. I'm pretty excited about what I'm taking this semester. I'm hoping they live up to my expectations.
As far as friends go, I'm really hoping I fit in more than I did. I don't want to feel left out like I did last semester. I don't think I'm a terrible person. Everyone from home loves having me around. I realize I can be annoying, but so can most people at some time or another. I think part of the problem was I was fairly self-confidenceless last semester and no one wants that kind of person around for long. So, now that I feel more confident in myself I'm hoping that will translate into me being more fun to be around. It's not like I'm looking for terribly close friends since I'm only here for a short time, but I would like people I can call up to grab a bite to eat or catch a movie. I just don't feel like I have that. Others here managed to do it in one short semester. I've always been a late bloomer though. It wasn't until almost the end of my freshman year of college that I managed to start making friends. And it wasn't till my sophomore year that I got a really core group. So, it just takes me longer than others. People say I'm not shy and I'm outgoing, which is terribly strange because I was always called shy for most of my life. It's weird to have people say that I'm not because I think that I am in many ways. I'm just not shy with my friends, so that's what they see. I am quite shy with people I don't know yet, mainly because I don't want them to get turned off by me and I'm not sure how they'll react to my personality just yet. I mean everyone here seems friendly, but I still get left out of things. I don't think it's on purpose, I just don't think they think of me. Well, we'll see how it goes. I feel like I'm going to be better this semester.
That was really rambly. I also want to learn to cook more. I only have like one dish that I make well.