i need a vacay
Finally confronted sparky about why he's not been around, and he says he's changing, he doesn't know what into, and he doesn't feel right hanging around eat n park. Oh and he's not sure how he feels. He didn't say about what. I told him i'd be here if he needs me and then I told him goodbye. It feels good in a way that I've talked to him, but it still didn't solve anything, and I really do love him and I miss my friend. I'm going to change aim names and I'll have a new LJ up soon- all of you who are on my friends list will have them. I've just accumulated too large a list of people i'd rather not have in my shit to keep these. Besides I really don't feel much like a sea turtle anymore. More of a fox or a hawk.
I hope he's happy with his new friends, because I don't think he's realizing that he's slowly burning bridges, particularly in MY neck of the woods. I'm more hurt than angry, and more sad than upset, but for now my pretty makeup is all down my cheeks and I feel like such shit. I've felt this way after talking to him every time for the past month. Maybe its best if he and I aren't friends. I can surround myself with much more supportive people than that. You guys are great, and you'll be hearing from me soon. Much Love to all of you.
I hope he's happy with his new friends, because I don't think he's realizing that he's slowly burning bridges, particularly in MY neck of the woods. I'm more hurt than angry, and more sad than upset, but for now my pretty makeup is all down my cheeks and I feel like such shit. I've felt this way after talking to him every time for the past month. Maybe its best if he and I aren't friends. I can surround myself with much more supportive people than that. You guys are great, and you'll be hearing from me soon. Much Love to all of you.