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[celticrocker]

Today i had a lot of time to think since all i did from when i got up till dinner time without breakfast or lunch is work. I thought a lot about my life and how much it sucks. My parents are divorced so we move often, and everytime i move to a new place and school, and i finally get a lot of friends, we move again. Its happened to me five times now and it just makes me so mad and all i can do is cry. It didn't really bother me so much when i waas younger because i was young and friends didn't mean as much to you as they do when your a teenager. Then my dad has the nerve to ask me why im not out with my friends, and because he is my father i cant really say anything to him so i just go in my room and cry and write lyrics and blast my stereo. Music helps me through a lot, i think thats why im so into playing guitar and stuff. Life is just so unfair and cruel that sometimes i wonder how the people i know now, especailly my parents, would be if i was never born. I don't like to think about myself as suicidel but the thought has entered my mind a lot and i wont go any farther with that subject lol. The opposite sex just adds to the suckage of my life. I think these days the only time inm like truely happy and completely care and worry free are when im with my friends. Around them there is nothing to hide and u can just be urself, i wish you could always be like that. So i guess they make life worth it. I jus wish i didnt move from my last school, i was actually very popular there and had more friends then have ever had or ever will have again. I keep waiting for sumthing amazingly awesome to happen to me, i mean with all this bad has to come good right? i can only hope. Maybe i'll just run away from home again and move in with a friend, idk. I can't wait till college, that'll be like a giant vacation from frustration.

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