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My birthday was the worst one i have ever heard of in the history of birthdays. I spent the majority of the time crying at the dinner table, trying to eat but my hands were shakin too muchso i didnt get much in. My family had a gigantic fight and everyone was leaving. My grandma was hysterical crying and screaming telling everyone to stop. Everyone else was screaming and cursing at eachother and my dad almost got in a couple of fist fights. They were shoving eachother and threatening eachother as i sat there at the table with them all standing next to and besides me as they leaned over me yelling and pushing. There was nothing i could do but cry. Then my aunt, uncle, and my baby twin cousins left. Then came cake time after people tried to setle down and my father stood outside, they started singing without him which really hurt, so he came in and got mad that they did that. So 5 minutes later they light the candles again and bring him to the table and they sing but he just stands there with his arms folded which hurt more, and i had to sit there with a fake smile and tears on my cheak. So i began to cut the cake as my father walked away and we ate it in silence. So then arrived present time and i went to get my father and he asked if we were eating cake first and i was just to upset and walked away, he knows that we eat it right after you blow the candles out, so he watched me open like one present and was in the other room for all the others. After that he went off again, yelling at everyone and told my grandma that they would never have to deal with him again. My other aunt and my 2 cousins stopped left our family and that really hurt my grandma, i havent seen them in like 2 years. He cant take me away from her, that would kill her, so ive just been trying to make him happy so he'll forget about all of that