Orestes
So, it's the last day of work for me and I'm feeling down and nostalgic *sigh* I've never been very good at saying goodbye to people, especially to those with whom I've shared the past 2 years and a half with, and I'm dreading the moment when I have to walk out of the office for the last time.
But what will be will be and there's no point in dwelling about it too much.
Hence, due to my mood, I wrote a small songfic since I really needed to express myself in some way. It's a slight insight into the workings of Sasuke's mind and it's based on the song Orestes by 'A Perfect Circle'. I just think the lyrics fit perfectly, not to mention that our avenger's fate has a certain parallel with the greek myth of Orestes.
This is dark and angsty. Hope you enjoy it.
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Disclaimer: I don't own any of the characters of Naruto nor A Perfect Circle's lyrics.
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How does one relive those moments of happiness without the bitterness of the years taking over your being? How does one recall the smiles, the laughs and the union which kept you together without the dark emptiness which threatens to engulf you completely?
Once, it might have been possible to forget such anguish and to relish in the memories with the help of sapphire eyes and blond hair, accompanied by a loud mouth whose words could encourage you to better yourself and could almost convince you that you could let things go. And those emerald orbs which would stare at you with such intensity that you could pretend you felt alive for a few moments a day… emerald orbs framed by cherry hair… If the circumstances had been different, then maybe all this would have been enough to pull him out of oblivion.
But the truth was that it wasn’t enough, it never would be, and his soul was destined to dwell in darkness as he acted out the workings of his fate.
Avenger.
Metaphor for a missing moment
Pull me into your perfect circle
One womb, One chain, One resolve
The circle would one day be complete; he had sworn his life on it. Those who killed would one day be killed and the stolen lives of the people who had been bathed in blood would be somehow returned. For all of them were held together by bonds stronger than any other liaison anyone could ever imagine. The dead, the killer and the punisher. Blood ties were not enough to describe the way they were held together as one, chained to that elusive border between life and death.
With one foot on either side, Sasuke would continue with his ever present quest for power, knowing the resolve of his family was one with his own… was one with his brother’s.
Liberate this will
To release us all
Freedom in cold blooded death. That was his prime goal. Once his fate had been fulfilled, he would free his family, his soul and Itachi’s spirit from this cruel, malicious game life had dictated they play. And he would act his role with a flourish, annihilating his brother in the worst way possible.
In truth, it was what the older Uchiha wanted… to have his brother surpass him beyond measure, taking his life in the process.
Why else would he have marked his younger sibling with the title which would mark him for life?
Sasuke wasn’t one to disappoint.
Gotta cut away, clear away, snip away
and sever this umbilical residue
Keeping me from killing you
It was clear then, that he could not relive his memories without an all consuming hate invading his body. It was all a necessary step in his quest to avenge his family and the anger fed his resolve day in and day out.
There were no bonds between brothers… nothing left but the ties of wrath and abhorrence. All the times they had lived together, practiced together… the pride Sasuke had once felt towards Itachi, the admiration with which he would look up to him… all this disappeared and wasted away.
There was absolutely no use for it and no place for such weakness in Sasuke’s heart.
And from pulling you down with me
In here I can almost hear you scream
Suffering. That was what Itachi needed to experience. Complete and utter torment so he could relive the anguish his little brother had been forced to live through. The pain of his mother and the agony of his father would be Itachi’s to cherish on his death day and Sasuke would welcome him into the nothingness his life had become with open arms.
One more medicated peaceful moment (give me)
One more medicated peaceful moment
Naruto and Sakura had only served as paralyzing drugs… like a substance which prevented him from acting out the desires of his heart. All they had ever done was hold him back, feeding his head with sentimental rubbish. At one point he had almost believed everything they said and it had taken a chance meeting with his brother to realize his mistakes.
There was no room for friendship in his life, no room for love. There had never truly been anything else but the anger and the hate.
An avenger didn’t feel.
An avenger killed.
And I don't wanna feel this overwhelming hostility
No, I don't wanna feel this overwhelming hostility
It had to end at some point, this engulfing void which he called life. The rage and detestation needed to stop eventually and they would end on the day Sasuke took the life of his brother with his own hands.
His destiny would be fulfilled and he would join in his family in the afterlife.
It would all end then. A perfect ending for a fucked up life.
Gotta cut away clear away
Snip away inside of this umbilical residue
Keeping me from killing you
Keeping me from killing you
And maybe, just maybe, when they were reborn in another lifetime, the circle of vengeance would have come to its end, returning to them the years of brotherhood which had been stolen so early in their life.
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As usual, let me know what you think.