The Social Experiment
On a rather popular hookup site for the homersexuals, I conducted a social experiment. Johnathan and I split up, I was feeling rather hopeless... and well it just happened.
I created two profiles. One with real pictures of me (including one rather... unclothed picture), real honest details about myself as I am now, and put it up. The second profile was completely fake, using pictures of a friend of mine, and used details that were... slightly exaggerated. The idea was to see just how different the reaction would be.
Over the course of a day, my profile received 1 (one) view, and I received 1 (one message). The fake profile received almost 500 views and over 250 messages. And that got me thinking... what's so wrong about me that would cause a difference that drastic?
The fake profile is gone now as it started to become too depressing to see. And my profile still has only gotten maybe 5 views.
I have said this before and I will repeat it. I am ok with myself, I just wish the rest of the world was. My body has changed drastically over the course of the past 8-9 years and yes, it is difficult for me to accept it, but I am ok with it.
But it's just amazing to me to see how... different... life is for those that are thin and beautiful. The attention varied from 'lets do it now' to 'i'll hire you to clean my house naked'. I'm not sure I'd ever want that kind of attention. Ever.
But I can say this. People suck.
I created two profiles. One with real pictures of me (including one rather... unclothed picture), real honest details about myself as I am now, and put it up. The second profile was completely fake, using pictures of a friend of mine, and used details that were... slightly exaggerated. The idea was to see just how different the reaction would be.
Over the course of a day, my profile received 1 (one) view, and I received 1 (one message). The fake profile received almost 500 views and over 250 messages. And that got me thinking... what's so wrong about me that would cause a difference that drastic?
The fake profile is gone now as it started to become too depressing to see. And my profile still has only gotten maybe 5 views.
I have said this before and I will repeat it. I am ok with myself, I just wish the rest of the world was. My body has changed drastically over the course of the past 8-9 years and yes, it is difficult for me to accept it, but I am ok with it.
But it's just amazing to me to see how... different... life is for those that are thin and beautiful. The attention varied from 'lets do it now' to 'i'll hire you to clean my house naked'. I'm not sure I'd ever want that kind of attention. Ever.
But I can say this. People suck.