Dream of Jamie
I had a very strong dream of Jamie last night.
I dreamt she was contacting me out of the blue after all this time. Strangly talk started out as small talk but overtime she told me she should not have disapeared on me and regretted doing so. She told me she lived in France now and wanted to be with me again at first online and then..who knows.
I tried at first to play the hurt party and make her feel guilty for abandoning me. But I could not and in the end took her back just so happy to have her again my soulmate.
The dream was so intense. I often am at least semi-aware that I am dreaming but this I really did feel like it was true.
It has been four years since she disapeared and this dream just shows it was more than a normal relationship I had with her. It was something very special. My love for her has never diminished. My need for her has only grown. I do believe she is my soulmate. We were so good together and so loving.
I am not sure why she disapeared only that she lost her internet and computer. I am not sure why she never returned. Yet I still believe she felt this bond too. I still remember the things she said and still have some of the emails she sent.
Did she leave because the propect of real life scared her? I was starting to pursue it and she was very shy rl like me. Was it her family? they are strong Christians and may have put a stop if they ever found out about me. I also sometimes wonder if her roommate was not more than that. A husband she did not dare tell me about as she indulged her bisexual side online. Could he have put a stop to it? Or worst of all the thought she never came back because of an accident or illness. I am not sure I can contemplate that.
Four years on and I still love her like I have never loved another. Still yearn for her and ned her. I feel incomplete without her. I am not truly me if I am not with her. Will she ever return to me? IN this lifetime I just do not know. I can but hope. Will be be together again? I believe we shall. I believe we are soulmates and I believe in the next life we shall be with one another.
I miss you my beloeved Jamie. I still love you more deeply than I can ever truly express.
I dreamt she was contacting me out of the blue after all this time. Strangly talk started out as small talk but overtime she told me she should not have disapeared on me and regretted doing so. She told me she lived in France now and wanted to be with me again at first online and then..who knows.
I tried at first to play the hurt party and make her feel guilty for abandoning me. But I could not and in the end took her back just so happy to have her again my soulmate.
The dream was so intense. I often am at least semi-aware that I am dreaming but this I really did feel like it was true.
It has been four years since she disapeared and this dream just shows it was more than a normal relationship I had with her. It was something very special. My love for her has never diminished. My need for her has only grown. I do believe she is my soulmate. We were so good together and so loving.
I am not sure why she disapeared only that she lost her internet and computer. I am not sure why she never returned. Yet I still believe she felt this bond too. I still remember the things she said and still have some of the emails she sent.
Did she leave because the propect of real life scared her? I was starting to pursue it and she was very shy rl like me. Was it her family? they are strong Christians and may have put a stop if they ever found out about me. I also sometimes wonder if her roommate was not more than that. A husband she did not dare tell me about as she indulged her bisexual side online. Could he have put a stop to it? Or worst of all the thought she never came back because of an accident or illness. I am not sure I can contemplate that.
Four years on and I still love her like I have never loved another. Still yearn for her and ned her. I feel incomplete without her. I am not truly me if I am not with her. Will she ever return to me? IN this lifetime I just do not know. I can but hope. Will be be together again? I believe we shall. I believe we are soulmates and I believe in the next life we shall be with one another.
I miss you my beloeved Jamie. I still love you more deeply than I can ever truly express.