Disappearing Act...
"If I could be like that, I would give anything
Just to live one day, in those shoes...
If I could be like that, what would I do?
What would I do?"
My journal disappeared for a day, I'm sure some of you noticed. I was going to convert over to MySpace, but I found that their blogs are almost impossible to write in... So, I'm back up and running on LiveJournal, my home away from home...
I've been thinking about a lot of stuff lately, some good, some down-right depressing... Don and I are at a frustrating point, we aren't broken up, but things went a little too fast on both sides... Right now I'm standing on the edge of that cliff looking down, and it's a long fall that I don't want to take... But that's where it is... I can't say that I want it to be over, but I can't help but wonder if maybe there is just some reason he and I aren't supposed to be together... And if there is, why are we delaying the inevitable? I thought about us, and how we are two totally different people....There is so much different, it's hard to see why or how we work out together...
I just want to be in a normal relationship, where it isn't a constant battle to stay together, things move at the right pace, there isn't any feeling of cautiousness... It just feels right, and you feel safer than you ever have...
"She spends her days up in the north park,
watching the people as they pass...
And all she wants is just a little piee of this dream, is that too much to ask?
With a safe home, and a warm bed, on a quiet little street...
All she wants is just that something to hold onto, that's all she needs..."
That's all I need...
XoXo,
Jill