I don't even know anymore....
Everyone is probably wondering why I am using this journal.I thought I would go back to when things seemed simple so I am letting things go.Nothing seems worth much right now.I have lost a lot and I hate what I have become.due to some of the people around me.Well to say the least I have no idea what is going on with anyone anymore.I hate the feeling of not knowing,but that is all that I am left with so it'll have to work...I don't know what to believe anymore.There is so much going on around me that I wish it would just die down and go away.I don't want problems,life is difficult enough without them.I have been working a lot lately and my mom and I are actually getting along for once.We have been talking pretty much every night about pretty much everything.I might even consider moving back with her since we are doing so well and she wants me to.We have established that I am me and that I can do what I want as long as I show her respect...so thats good.I know that I have made mistakes and have said somethings that weren't true...I know that I can be a bitch to say the least and that there were people that were always there for me.I know I need to apologize to a few people,but they probably won't talk to me so there is no point.There are so many false things in the world it is hard to seperate them from what is really there.I have felt betrayed,but I have now come to realize that it is time for me to stand and deal with my life...not others,but my own.Life is to short to live with regret all we can do is go on and learn from our past NOT live in it.I'm sorry to those that were there for me and I walked away from....you were right,but it doesn't seem to matter now.
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