Jan 01, 2010 22:46
Good god, I wish I knew the words to explain myself these days.
I feel more like a teenager now than I did when I actually was. Things are generally shitty these days, but that might be just because I am depressed at the moment. I want to say I miss this person, or that one, but I don't think I do. I can actually say with quite a bit of certainty that I will never actually miss these people, but I'll miss the idea of them when I am feeling lonely.
What exactly are your goals, my dear boy?
2009 was a really good year for me, but I know it was just another year, and my achievements mean little to anyone but me. I hope to lose the anger that seems to have manifested within me sometime soon, seeing as I cannot explain it.
I want to stop wasting the little love I have to give on people who I don't actually care about.
Further figuring myself out would also be nice, but I never stay the same long enough to even bother.
"I miss her so fucking much"
"Man, don't be such a pussy! ...I might just be saying that because I've never actually cared about anyone...ever"