Tensa Zangetsu - Zach Cloninger's Distraction
FUCKKKKKKKKKKK God Damn why do I hate myself so fucking much now?! I woke up cussing at the fucking world for making me open my eyes. It just drives me crazy, because I know I have been depressed for years, just bottling up my emotions in order to keep my appearance up. I just wanna see someone, or to just know someone wants to see me. I went back again yesterday, and talked to my father. He just laughs at the situation I've been placed into, knowing damn well he could help it out if he wanted.
But maybe I don't deserve help, or love, or friends. It just hurts you know? There isn't anyone around now...well there is toby, and Tonio *Thank god for both of em, seriously* but I just want one person around. That one person.....I'm just so fucking tired of caring about myself, because no one else does. I've lost my usefulness. I think that's why I decided to start writing on this again, because I know i can vent, and maybe calm myself down. It hurts so bad when the people you love abandon you.
But it was probably for their own good.
Love Everybody
-Zac
But maybe I don't deserve help, or love, or friends. It just hurts you know? There isn't anyone around now...well there is toby, and Tonio *Thank god for both of em, seriously* but I just want one person around. That one person.....I'm just so fucking tired of caring about myself, because no one else does. I've lost my usefulness. I think that's why I decided to start writing on this again, because I know i can vent, and maybe calm myself down. It hurts so bad when the people you love abandon you.
But it was probably for their own good.
Love Everybody
-Zac