I hate going alone ...

[cellyz]

So whenever a fair or festival or anything like that comes up, it seems that nobody
else wants to go so I'm either left with going by myself or not going at all. I really hate
it when this happens because both ways aren't fun. If I stay home, I feel bad for not
going and feel like I'm missing out but if I go, then I end up all lonely and wish I had
just stayed home.

There's this thing called the FrightFest that happens every Halloween and I really wanted
to go this year. It sounded like a lotta fun. Maria happened to have cheap tickets so
she gave me some and it happens to be this weekend only to use them. Bad part is, the
person I really wanted to go with doesn't want to go and already has plans. I could just
take someone else but Maria already told me that she's been to the FrightFest already
and didn't feel like going this year and I'm not sure if any of the other girls at church would
want to go. There's no harm in asking but I think the thing that's upsetting me is the fact
that the person I want to go out and do fun things with doesn't want to. Not only doesn't want to
but is doing other fun things with significant other.

I feel all horribly depressed now and the only thing that's keeping me from totally spiraling
down a bad depressive episode is the fact that no matter how lonely I am, I know that God
is here with me to lean on.

So thanks God for being here right now for me when it feels like no one else is. Thanks for
hope and love and especially strength and confidence of which I always feel I'm lacking in.

xoxo