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thank god it's friday- seriously. there's a boy's basketball game tonight, i think i'll go to that. &maybe applebee's after that haha.
a lot has been on my mind lately. for one, i didn't apply to college- i didn't feel like i needed to, and now i think i understand why i didn't. this christian ministry group came to my school today and they did some pretty awesome stuff, they danced, acted and just made us laugh and have a good time while sharing God and not making us feel uncomfortable. it got me kinda thinking maybe this is something i could do too. i mean, i used to be such a devoute christian and then i don't know what happened. i miss that life. seriously, my best day without God was 10x worse than my worst day with God because atleast i could go to bed at night and know that no matter what, there was someone that cared about me and would be looking out for me. sometimes, it makes me wonder, why i left that. why did i just drop it? it's stupid really, too. i thought boys could make me happy but they just cause so much drama and i can't take that, especially now. i thought that alcohol and drugs were the coolest thing ever- yeah it's fun once in awhile, but i mean EVERY weekend, doing the same thing over and over, it gets pretty old after 5 years of it, plus it was just my escape anyways. this christian ministry called jesus revolution is actually pretty cool. it's all in europe. Norway, Germany, France, Spain, Italy, the Czech Republic, Hungary, Poland and Austria. That's pretty friggin' cool. you can stay in one of these countries for a year, and learn about God and stuff and about culture. if i went, i'd definitely do the Norway one, or maybe Italy or France. haha. but seriously, that's pretty cool. i still need to think about it and pray and talk to my parents. i know they wouldn't be too happy with me though, they probably want me to go to college and that, but that's not exactly what i want to do.
also, i might be going to Norway from June 28th to July 20th! Whitney is going, it's her graduation present, and i really want it to be mine too. ofcourse i'd help out with paying for it and stuff, when i come home to work. that's a really big graduation present to ask for, but it's what i've been wanting to do ever since i met the norwegians here. they're pretty much unbelievable. i love them and i wanna learn about their culture and stuff. and i'd be able to stay with all of my friends over there, and go to marte's brothers wedding! :) :) :) that'd be pretty cool. my dad really wants me to go, but my mom wants my head on a platter for asking. haha. oh well. i hope my dad can convince my mom to let me go. tickets are like $745 right now and if i wait too long it's gonna be like $1000. so yeah, that's the newest thing in life i guess.
will is actually pretty cool. he's a lot nicer than when i knew him back home. i got to talk with him on wednesday night for awhile.
now i need to go shower and get ready for dinner & then for the game. byeee.
a lot has been on my mind lately. for one, i didn't apply to college- i didn't feel like i needed to, and now i think i understand why i didn't. this christian ministry group came to my school today and they did some pretty awesome stuff, they danced, acted and just made us laugh and have a good time while sharing God and not making us feel uncomfortable. it got me kinda thinking maybe this is something i could do too. i mean, i used to be such a devoute christian and then i don't know what happened. i miss that life. seriously, my best day without God was 10x worse than my worst day with God because atleast i could go to bed at night and know that no matter what, there was someone that cared about me and would be looking out for me. sometimes, it makes me wonder, why i left that. why did i just drop it? it's stupid really, too. i thought boys could make me happy but they just cause so much drama and i can't take that, especially now. i thought that alcohol and drugs were the coolest thing ever- yeah it's fun once in awhile, but i mean EVERY weekend, doing the same thing over and over, it gets pretty old after 5 years of it, plus it was just my escape anyways. this christian ministry called jesus revolution is actually pretty cool. it's all in europe. Norway, Germany, France, Spain, Italy, the Czech Republic, Hungary, Poland and Austria. That's pretty friggin' cool. you can stay in one of these countries for a year, and learn about God and stuff and about culture. if i went, i'd definitely do the Norway one, or maybe Italy or France. haha. but seriously, that's pretty cool. i still need to think about it and pray and talk to my parents. i know they wouldn't be too happy with me though, they probably want me to go to college and that, but that's not exactly what i want to do.
also, i might be going to Norway from June 28th to July 20th! Whitney is going, it's her graduation present, and i really want it to be mine too. ofcourse i'd help out with paying for it and stuff, when i come home to work. that's a really big graduation present to ask for, but it's what i've been wanting to do ever since i met the norwegians here. they're pretty much unbelievable. i love them and i wanna learn about their culture and stuff. and i'd be able to stay with all of my friends over there, and go to marte's brothers wedding! :) :) :) that'd be pretty cool. my dad really wants me to go, but my mom wants my head on a platter for asking. haha. oh well. i hope my dad can convince my mom to let me go. tickets are like $745 right now and if i wait too long it's gonna be like $1000. so yeah, that's the newest thing in life i guess.
will is actually pretty cool. he's a lot nicer than when i knew him back home. i got to talk with him on wednesday night for awhile.
now i need to go shower and get ready for dinner & then for the game. byeee.