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I find myself thanking circumstance for nights like this. It's these lonely nights I yearn for a hand to hold and a pair of lips to introduce to my own that truly remind me of how friendly my life has so obviously been to me. On these nights, I know that I have everything I could ever possibly need or want and have but one piece to fulfill. Only one. Everything is placed just so and I've only to find a person to share it with. How exciting it is to know I'm so close to touching my freedom-- dining on my last supper of solitude. And to add to that even, it's makes me so anxious knowing I'll be able to share all of this beauty once this final role is fulfilled.
Like a good Buddhist, I'm learning to not want. I'm taking it upon myself to distance myself from the concept of wanting to familiarize myself with deserving. What I desire, I must deserve. And I've a growing acceptance with not being worthy of certain things-- whether it be for trivial or legitimate reasons-- and upon realizing, I am finding myself much more content with the way things design themselves to happen. With my own morals on others and how they should or should not deserve certain things, I feel that this mentality will help me find a person that is mutually worthy of my attention as I am theirs.
Now it's just a matter of patience and focus -- two things I'm willing to offer for such a prominent place to arrive at.
Like a good Buddhist, I'm learning to not want. I'm taking it upon myself to distance myself from the concept of wanting to familiarize myself with deserving. What I desire, I must deserve. And I've a growing acceptance with not being worthy of certain things-- whether it be for trivial or legitimate reasons-- and upon realizing, I am finding myself much more content with the way things design themselves to happen. With my own morals on others and how they should or should not deserve certain things, I feel that this mentality will help me find a person that is mutually worthy of my attention as I am theirs.
Now it's just a matter of patience and focus -- two things I'm willing to offer for such a prominent place to arrive at.