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[celli513]

I must say I am utterly confused right now. There's a problem occuring in my head recently that has two, possibily three answers... but i don't know which one I want to pick. At least, not yet. More time is needed to even figure out the cards in play, to use a cliche reference. They say (or at least I say) that things always work out... too bad

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[celli513]

You can be a sounding board, not I'm not sure how much actual help you can be. Right now I'm dating Ryan, as you know.... and I used to date Gray (for however short a time that was) as you also know... but now, Gray is showing interest once again, and this time it's apparently with his own doing, and not the situation it was last year. At the same time, I don't think I ever actually got over him completely. Either way, I really want this to happen- especially because my relationship with Ryan isn't exactly the best it could be- mostly because i think I need something different in my life right now. Not to mention, I've wanted what is happened with Gray for a long time. Now, this seems pretty clearcut, but I don't know exactly what Gray wants as of now....and I will really hate having the impending talk with Ryan, because i do love him, and I can see how much he loves me and even needs me right now. He's said a couple times that he expects me to go off with someone else one of these days- and come back to him. That kinda helps some, I guess, but still... it's quite a struggle happening in my head, and I don't like it. Ryan and I have so much that is supposed to be happening soon- a nice dinner, him coming home with me, his brother's wedding, etc.. Anyway, that's the jist of it... I need to go to a coaching right now. Call me sometime and we can hang out, maybe discuss this in greater detail if I don't figure things out soon (which I probably won't).

Thanks... hope that wasn't too much.