im just tired...(sorry long entry, but its important!)
okay these past two days for some reason ive been really down...just like ive been tired, not really into having fun, kind of being a little bit of a loner, not really eating much, and just in general feeling sad and easily frustrated...and i have no idea why. well i have some idea why...
for one thing, i miss kimarianekelseysteph like whoa. i got to see the wonderful mag7-steph over thanksgiving break...and ever since that little tease of seeing them for a night, ive missed them EVEN MORE. those 4 girls are just like, the best part of my life. talking with kim like every day...that girl is my other half i am convinced. or at least my other blonde half? being so near to steph and not getting to see her enough...thats hard. being far from ariane and kelsey, thats even harder, and makes me even sadder. those 4 girls are simply my 4 best friends in the whole entire world and no matter how many times i say that or emphasize it enough, i love them SOOO MUCH, and even though ive always known this, being apart from them for so long has made me realize even more how much they really do mean to me and how much i value them...but i think this experience is making us even closer, despite the distance. MAG7 IS LOVE. i dont think theres a friendship out there that can beat ours. <3 <3 <3 <3 (a heart for each of you!) and im so psyched for doing a SECRET SANTA!
i also do miss home a little bit...i mean for one thing the best friends previously mentioned, not to mention my other amazing mtown and new hamphire friends...too many to count lol, but u kno like allison, hannah, nicole, etc...and i havent talked to ASPers in awhile...which isnt good and i must do too. but i also miss my family, especially miy sister, who i too got to see over turkey day, and will see in a couple weeks, but i love being sooo close to her and we definitely never get to talk enough. she got a laptop though, so hopefully we'll IM a bit. and of course the parents, and the cat, and my own room, stuff like that.
and then theres the things that im getting tired of...finals are coming just around the corner and i have a lot of work at the moment. and im sooo worried about keeping the grades up. I have to keep my scholarship or im basically screwed. and i feel like ive gotten fat which doesnt make sense from all the walking i do and the fact that i dont eat any more than i did last year...ugh. i just dont wanna get fat. ive already been there and done that. my hair is also totally misshapen and i really want to fix that, but that probably wont happen till xmas break? not to mention im even paler. physically, i feel like i could definitely look better. and i hate my nose! but i would never get plastic surgery, lol dont worrrry i saw a lady today who had had sooo much plastic surgery her eyes were like squeezed together in the middle of her head and she basically didnt have a nose cuz it was soooo small.
and then theres other things that are probably really getting to me. boys of course. grrr dont friggin block me from AIM when i like never even im you in the first place, and thats kind of all i have to say about that...not to mention im really starting to get over *someone* cuz i think he basically uses me and being young and living the college life, i cant just wait around...i just wish there was another guy for me to crush on or just take me out on a friggin date or something. gah. and then of course theres that *other* issue, if you can recall from last entry youll know what im talking about...its not that anything too interesting happened recently, its just that its getting to a point where i feel like its just adding an extra tension in my life and im basically ignoring the whole situation as well...
and lastly, my rooms been smelling like stale bread recently, although currently it does not. i guess that better than sarahs room smelling like sweaty ass, however. oh man does she have horrid roommate stories. and thanksgiving break was greatttt btw. i loved it...and i went xmas shopping today and bought enough presents for 7 people, as well as myself...and spent less than a kid who bought one pair of puma sneakers at neiman marcus...ohhhhh rich kids. i <3 bentley.
i go back to MTOWN december 17th..when does everyone else come back? also to all my mtown seniors...hope the college app process is goin good! uve almost made it!
goooood luck on finals everyone!
there, getting this all out made me feel a little better. cuz wtf mate, im not supposed to get depressed.
xoxo,
Me
for one thing, i miss kimarianekelseysteph like whoa. i got to see the wonderful mag7-steph over thanksgiving break...and ever since that little tease of seeing them for a night, ive missed them EVEN MORE. those 4 girls are just like, the best part of my life. talking with kim like every day...that girl is my other half i am convinced. or at least my other blonde half? being so near to steph and not getting to see her enough...thats hard. being far from ariane and kelsey, thats even harder, and makes me even sadder. those 4 girls are simply my 4 best friends in the whole entire world and no matter how many times i say that or emphasize it enough, i love them SOOO MUCH, and even though ive always known this, being apart from them for so long has made me realize even more how much they really do mean to me and how much i value them...but i think this experience is making us even closer, despite the distance. MAG7 IS LOVE. i dont think theres a friendship out there that can beat ours. <3 <3 <3 <3 (a heart for each of you!) and im so psyched for doing a SECRET SANTA!
i also do miss home a little bit...i mean for one thing the best friends previously mentioned, not to mention my other amazing mtown and new hamphire friends...too many to count lol, but u kno like allison, hannah, nicole, etc...and i havent talked to ASPers in awhile...which isnt good and i must do too. but i also miss my family, especially miy sister, who i too got to see over turkey day, and will see in a couple weeks, but i love being sooo close to her and we definitely never get to talk enough. she got a laptop though, so hopefully we'll IM a bit. and of course the parents, and the cat, and my own room, stuff like that.
and then theres the things that im getting tired of...finals are coming just around the corner and i have a lot of work at the moment. and im sooo worried about keeping the grades up. I have to keep my scholarship or im basically screwed. and i feel like ive gotten fat which doesnt make sense from all the walking i do and the fact that i dont eat any more than i did last year...ugh. i just dont wanna get fat. ive already been there and done that. my hair is also totally misshapen and i really want to fix that, but that probably wont happen till xmas break? not to mention im even paler. physically, i feel like i could definitely look better. and i hate my nose! but i would never get plastic surgery, lol dont worrrry i saw a lady today who had had sooo much plastic surgery her eyes were like squeezed together in the middle of her head and she basically didnt have a nose cuz it was soooo small.
and then theres other things that are probably really getting to me. boys of course. grrr dont friggin block me from AIM when i like never even im you in the first place, and thats kind of all i have to say about that...not to mention im really starting to get over *someone* cuz i think he basically uses me and being young and living the college life, i cant just wait around...i just wish there was another guy for me to crush on or just take me out on a friggin date or something. gah. and then of course theres that *other* issue, if you can recall from last entry youll know what im talking about...its not that anything too interesting happened recently, its just that its getting to a point where i feel like its just adding an extra tension in my life and im basically ignoring the whole situation as well...
and lastly, my rooms been smelling like stale bread recently, although currently it does not. i guess that better than sarahs room smelling like sweaty ass, however. oh man does she have horrid roommate stories. and thanksgiving break was greatttt btw. i loved it...and i went xmas shopping today and bought enough presents for 7 people, as well as myself...and spent less than a kid who bought one pair of puma sneakers at neiman marcus...ohhhhh rich kids. i <3 bentley.
i go back to MTOWN december 17th..when does everyone else come back? also to all my mtown seniors...hope the college app process is goin good! uve almost made it!
goooood luck on finals everyone!
there, getting this all out made me feel a little better. cuz wtf mate, im not supposed to get depressed.
xoxo,
Me