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[cellardoor__xx]

I was more embarressed when i got home..
then the time I pissed myself..
( shut up ashton haha ).
FUCK.. i wanted to shoot myself.
i just went quiet.. i never go quiet..?
I WAS SO QUIET.
Im so weirddddddddddddddddddd. AH I RUINED IT FOR MYSELF.. there is no possible way anythings going to happen now..
i bet he thinks im INSAINLY boring. eek.
I JUST.. freezed upp .. for a long time.. i new i shouldnt have got so stoned.
UGHHH.

bitchesss.