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What does it mean when you realize your full potential? The entire concept of maturity and growing up is the scariest experience of my life, thus far. After living in NYC for almost 5 months, I am finally realizing the severity of this decision.
I was recently talking with a friend that is getting ready to move to the city as well. He said something that stuck out to me, "I think that when someone moves to NYC they change the course of the rest of their life." I couldn't agree more, but after some thought on the topic i realized something; how many choices do we make every day, every week, every month that have changed the path we're currently on for the rest of our lives.
Think about it, you make coffee instead of buying it that morning from the coffee shop below your apartment. You save $1.50 because of it. You didn't meet the new barista, you didn't meet your life partner. Or, you walked the opposite way to the subway with your to-go cup of coffee and breathed in the cold air. you missed, by five minutes, a robbery of that same coffee shop below your apartment. My mind thinks like this.
I look back at my life last year and how I was living it and thank God for getting out of that house when I had. I have never been in such a poor place as that. Had I not moved home a week early, I wouldn't have gotten my two jobs as soon as I did. I wouldn't have rekindled a distant friendship with Casey Michalski. I wouldn't have had enough money to move. I wouldn't have stopped smoking pot. I would be living in a house that gets frequently broken into and robbed. My friends would be drug dealers. I would be unhealthily skinny and still working at American Eagle 15 hours a week. I wouldn't be in school. I would be in debt. I very well might have been dealing drugs myself.
Since i DID move home I learned discipline. I was able to make/save more money in 3 months than i have in my entire life. I got into better shape and started eating and eating in a healthy way. I realized my entire life that past year had been like an anti-drug ad. I found the joy in working for a goal and I am still feeling the rewards from doing that. I moved to NYC. I found an amazing job, the best i've ever had. I have an apartment that I can pay the rent for. I have a group of friends that would kill for me but still let me be alone a lot. I have found independence and a way to be be happy with who I am not with who I surround myself with. I have started to read and challenge myself with what I read. I bought a bookshelf and rug and was happy about it for a week. I have learned how to deal with loss. I have felt like I was going crazy. I have learned to NYC subway system. I fallen asleep at 4am on the NYC subway. I have learned how to value my family and realize they are what keeps me sane. I have found a new love for my mother and father. I took advantage of my sister. I realized i took advantage of her and did everything I could to make it right. I made it right. I am doing what I have been dreaming about. I walk where they shot Sex and the city constantly. I now think that $6.50 is a great deal on cigarettes. I have never been happier. I have never been able to see myself accomplishing my dream more than I am able to today.
I am happy. I am joyful. I am humbled. I have been given an opportunity I WON'T waste.
My choice to move to NYC has changed the rest of my life. I will make many choices in the next year that will again change my path. I hope and pray to make the right ones. I find this as a very up lifting way to think, but that could be because I've also realized I'm neurotic. But if every choice you made could potentially change the rest of your life, you would want to make the best choice. It can easily be made into a way of life. Keeping that in mind springboards to making what you feel is the right decision and wanting to do the right thing. People aren't born with a good heart, but you can learn to have one. Why not start now?
I was recently talking with a friend that is getting ready to move to the city as well. He said something that stuck out to me, "I think that when someone moves to NYC they change the course of the rest of their life." I couldn't agree more, but after some thought on the topic i realized something; how many choices do we make every day, every week, every month that have changed the path we're currently on for the rest of our lives.
Think about it, you make coffee instead of buying it that morning from the coffee shop below your apartment. You save $1.50 because of it. You didn't meet the new barista, you didn't meet your life partner. Or, you walked the opposite way to the subway with your to-go cup of coffee and breathed in the cold air. you missed, by five minutes, a robbery of that same coffee shop below your apartment. My mind thinks like this.
I look back at my life last year and how I was living it and thank God for getting out of that house when I had. I have never been in such a poor place as that. Had I not moved home a week early, I wouldn't have gotten my two jobs as soon as I did. I wouldn't have rekindled a distant friendship with Casey Michalski. I wouldn't have had enough money to move. I wouldn't have stopped smoking pot. I would be living in a house that gets frequently broken into and robbed. My friends would be drug dealers. I would be unhealthily skinny and still working at American Eagle 15 hours a week. I wouldn't be in school. I would be in debt. I very well might have been dealing drugs myself.
Since i DID move home I learned discipline. I was able to make/save more money in 3 months than i have in my entire life. I got into better shape and started eating and eating in a healthy way. I realized my entire life that past year had been like an anti-drug ad. I found the joy in working for a goal and I am still feeling the rewards from doing that. I moved to NYC. I found an amazing job, the best i've ever had. I have an apartment that I can pay the rent for. I have a group of friends that would kill for me but still let me be alone a lot. I have found independence and a way to be be happy with who I am not with who I surround myself with. I have started to read and challenge myself with what I read. I bought a bookshelf and rug and was happy about it for a week. I have learned how to deal with loss. I have felt like I was going crazy. I have learned to NYC subway system. I fallen asleep at 4am on the NYC subway. I have learned how to value my family and realize they are what keeps me sane. I have found a new love for my mother and father. I took advantage of my sister. I realized i took advantage of her and did everything I could to make it right. I made it right. I am doing what I have been dreaming about. I walk where they shot Sex and the city constantly. I now think that $6.50 is a great deal on cigarettes. I have never been happier. I have never been able to see myself accomplishing my dream more than I am able to today.
I am happy. I am joyful. I am humbled. I have been given an opportunity I WON'T waste.
My choice to move to NYC has changed the rest of my life. I will make many choices in the next year that will again change my path. I hope and pray to make the right ones. I find this as a very up lifting way to think, but that could be because I've also realized I'm neurotic. But if every choice you made could potentially change the rest of your life, you would want to make the best choice. It can easily be made into a way of life. Keeping that in mind springboards to making what you feel is the right decision and wanting to do the right thing. People aren't born with a good heart, but you can learn to have one. Why not start now?