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I cant believe that it was a year ago yesterday. It still feels like she just moved away, it feels as if i can still see her if I want to. Why am i still in denile? I remember the day before she died, we were in the elevator in J building and her pink boa was shedding. I told her " wow laura, it looks as if youre leaving peices of you everywhere you go today" I cant imagine how true that was.
I remember being in Soho, in a store called Flying A with Lindsay, Antonia and Kayla. I remember looking at lindsay on the phone, and start crying. I remember Antonia grabbing the phone and bursting into tears. I thought that i heard someone say "Laura's dead" but i thought that it was a joke. I thought that someone was playing a horrible game. Kayla asked me what was wrong, and i told her " i think i heard lindsay say laura's dead, but i dont believe her" We walked out of the store, and Antonia broke down, and sat on the busy street corner. People were giving us looks, but none of us cared. Lindsay's mother came to pick us up, and we called her family, and they confirmed what we thought and hoped was still just a rumor. WE sat in the car for an hour of blur. People were sobbing the whole ride home, but i didnt believe it. It just wasnt true.
I hate how we were only friends for such a short time. Those times in 6th and 7th grade were some of the best. I miss her so much, and yet, because we werent best friends, i feel like i shouldnt feel this way, but she was still a part of my life, and i miss her like crazy. We started and ended the day together last year. I remember going back to school without her, not being there ABCDEF and TUVWXY. It was horrible.
I dont know what else to say...i miss you.