I gotta get out of this place
I can't take north carolina any more. I'm sorry but there is too much here that reminds me of my past and shit like that. for instance yesterday I got in a huge fight with my friends boyfriend...He said some really hurtfull shit that reminded me of the days in middle and high school where I was bullied to the point of trama. That's why I hate chapel hill...to many memorys...
I haven't told anyone about this...even gloria (some of it but not all)..When I was in middle school I had a wheelie backpack and i was harassed endlessly for it. every day these boys who lived in my naborhood would throw rocks at me as I walked home and one day I threw a rock back and it hit one of them and he ran after me and grabed my wrist and threw me down on the ground and threw a rock pont blank at my face. When my parents asked about the huge gash on my cheek I said I triped down the cement stairs in the back of my house. They must have known because they waited for me at the bus stop everyday after that. I still have a scar...When my friends boyfriend said to me "Frankie why aren't you in community college" it hurt just as much as that rock. How he can just say cruel shit like that to me, knowing that every day I get told by my parents in one form or another how stupid I am. He must have felt how that bully felt when he threw that rock at my face. I feel sorry for him because he is real smart but lacks all kinds of compassion. I fear he will live a very lonely life if this is how he treats his "friends". I really need an apology from him but I never wana talk to him again and that is a problem because it will effect my friendship with his girlfriend. With time this will blow over but right now all I am is hurt.
I haven't told anyone about this...even gloria (some of it but not all)..When I was in middle school I had a wheelie backpack and i was harassed endlessly for it. every day these boys who lived in my naborhood would throw rocks at me as I walked home and one day I threw a rock back and it hit one of them and he ran after me and grabed my wrist and threw me down on the ground and threw a rock pont blank at my face. When my parents asked about the huge gash on my cheek I said I triped down the cement stairs in the back of my house. They must have known because they waited for me at the bus stop everyday after that. I still have a scar...When my friends boyfriend said to me "Frankie why aren't you in community college" it hurt just as much as that rock. How he can just say cruel shit like that to me, knowing that every day I get told by my parents in one form or another how stupid I am. He must have felt how that bully felt when he threw that rock at my face. I feel sorry for him because he is real smart but lacks all kinds of compassion. I fear he will live a very lonely life if this is how he treats his "friends". I really need an apology from him but I never wana talk to him again and that is a problem because it will effect my friendship with his girlfriend. With time this will blow over but right now all I am is hurt.