One month to forever...
I cannot believe I am getting married in ONE MONTH!!! I never, EVER thought I would get married again. I thought I would do it once, and if it failed I would never do it again. When I look back, there was a piece of paper that said I was married, but it was never really a marriage. Or if it was, it was only for a short while. This time I am doing it right and for all the right reasons, and with the right person. This is what it should have been from the very beginning. Marrying your soulmate, marrying the man who loves you unconditionally, that is the way to start a marriage. Starting out with an open heart, TRUTH AND HONESTY, real committment, similar goals, dreams and aspirations. Waking up every day knowing that the person you love would NEVER do anything to hurt you out of spite - no matter how angry - and would never call you psycho or stupid bitch just to hurt you. I have someone that will never walk away, no matter how rough it gets. We can spend time apart and never once worry about what the other is doing, we never getting mad at a stray look or a harmless flirtation, never worry that the other would go so far out of their way to hurt you. This is true love. I didn't think it existed, and I questioned it for so long. I used to wonder if he would get tired of me questioning it, but instead he held me tighter, loved me stronger, and built my faith in forever. He loves my kids as if they were his own. He loves me when I am impossible to love. He loves my family despite all their insanity. He stands by me when I hurt, wipes my tears when I cry, and never walks away - NEVER. I never wonder what my life would be without him because my life never really started until I met him. He is the man I was meant to be with. The rest of my life was just getting to him. I am so much stronger in mind, heart and spirit than I ever was before, and no one can hurt me anymore - NO ONE. I can look in the mirror at the end of the day and be proud of who I am and the choices I make. Never look back, never dwell in regret. I am one month from becoming the wife of the most amazing man God ever created. I am one month from eternity.