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Arrrg, why does everything in life have to be so hard?
Well not much going on here lately, Ron was up last weekend and it was Delia's 18th birthday. so we got to eat yummy food. I helped amber finish sending out her wedding invitations and got to see her dress etc.
weekend before last I went to adrian to see ron. I knew that tom and bill's mom hadnt been doing well. They had been saying for a while that she was on her death bed. But it still seemed to come as a bit of a shock to everyone when she was gone. I didnt know her at all, but ron seemed to take it really hard. I didnt know how to handle it, ive never seen him cry before. he equated this loss for his good friends with old bottled up emotions left over from his grandfathers passing. I guess when he was little he was the favorite (being first son and all) and his grandpa lived with him, and he and his dad and grandad all used to hang out all the time and they would play video games and stuff. Then his grandpa got more and more tired, and one day his family cameup to his room crying and told him grandpa had passed away. he later found out grandpa had cancer for years and nobody thought he needed to know cause he was a kid. So the terminal illness thing again set him off. And, well, ive never seen him cry before, I didnt know what to do... he was just out of control. And you know what? All i could think was "oh god, he cant fall apart now, I cant take these overemotional types" how rotton is that, im so selfish lately.
I went to the viewing on sunday with ron. I was glad to see that Bill and Tom were doing ok, tom was his usual molesting self and bill seemed stable and quite upbeat for the occasion, but i guess that could be a defense mechanism. i hung out with Morwen. I needed that. I havent had any female companionship outside of my family in quite a while. while we're on that subject :
-Ilove you and i miss you. Im sorry i always screw things up, but i cant seem to stop myself. Please dont ignore me, I wish you would care.
Well I guess that is all for now. Gotta clean out the duck cage AGAIN. Stinking (literally) bird.
Well not much going on here lately, Ron was up last weekend and it was Delia's 18th birthday. so we got to eat yummy food. I helped amber finish sending out her wedding invitations and got to see her dress etc.
weekend before last I went to adrian to see ron. I knew that tom and bill's mom hadnt been doing well. They had been saying for a while that she was on her death bed. But it still seemed to come as a bit of a shock to everyone when she was gone. I didnt know her at all, but ron seemed to take it really hard. I didnt know how to handle it, ive never seen him cry before. he equated this loss for his good friends with old bottled up emotions left over from his grandfathers passing. I guess when he was little he was the favorite (being first son and all) and his grandpa lived with him, and he and his dad and grandad all used to hang out all the time and they would play video games and stuff. Then his grandpa got more and more tired, and one day his family cameup to his room crying and told him grandpa had passed away. he later found out grandpa had cancer for years and nobody thought he needed to know cause he was a kid. So the terminal illness thing again set him off. And, well, ive never seen him cry before, I didnt know what to do... he was just out of control. And you know what? All i could think was "oh god, he cant fall apart now, I cant take these overemotional types" how rotton is that, im so selfish lately.
I went to the viewing on sunday with ron. I was glad to see that Bill and Tom were doing ok, tom was his usual molesting self and bill seemed stable and quite upbeat for the occasion, but i guess that could be a defense mechanism. i hung out with Morwen. I needed that. I havent had any female companionship outside of my family in quite a while. while we're on that subject :
-Ilove you and i miss you. Im sorry i always screw things up, but i cant seem to stop myself. Please dont ignore me, I wish you would care.
Well I guess that is all for now. Gotta clean out the duck cage AGAIN. Stinking (literally) bird.