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Fun holidays. The party at drews was great, spent quality time with ron, well, sorta quality. Spent the night at his parents house new years eve. so i got a real bed for once instead of a stinky couch. I think i have him convinced that he needs an aerobed, you know like that air matress you have melissa. then he could sleep comfortably, but roll it up when tons of hygenically challenged people show up on the weekends. *shrug* but whatever.
Juniper (my dog) doesnt seem to realize that she is bigger than the duck. Really. in wolf packs the submissive dogs will lie on their backs and the alpha wolf often shows dominance by biting on the jaws of the smaller dogs. so juniper sees the duck waddling across the room at her and she drops to her belly and rolls over. the duck then comes up and will bite at her lips nose teeth and tongue while juniper just takes it and cries. What weird animals. and then they walk around all day together like they are the best of friends.
Today i caught them fighting over the dog food. gilbert (the duck) would try to take food out of the bowl and the dog would yank the bowl away, then the duck waddles up and tries again, and the dog yanks the bowl away. bizaar creatures.
I have an obsession with my dads new paper shredder in his office. I know its gonna be broken before long. I keep putting things in there just to see if it will shred them and what kind of noice that will make, Ive done paper cardboard credit cards, some craft foam, and bubble wrap. I wonder if cheese would get stuck?
I asked Ron on the phone today "If I murdered someone, would you help me hide the body?" I could tell by the silence on the other side that he probably wouldn't. I dont know if thats good or bad. That shows that hes not fiercely loyal to me, which is bad. But it also means that he has some morals, which cant be all that bad right? Or maybe he was just thinking "OMG my girlfriend is PSYCHOTIC!" so i made sure to add "oh, dont worry. I didnt kill anyone." LOL, god i am in a wierd mood tonight.
A new episode of LOST was on tonight. FINALLY. after a month or more of waiting we got a new episode.
I feel bad that I really dont want to drive down to visit ron this weekend, its not that i dont want to see him. I really do. But i dont want to drive that far again. Im exhausted from all that driving, I think I have driven the last three visits. Why should it always be up to me. He could get his liscence, he has a job and just got a paycheck bigger than my last one. He has his parents van for the taking just like me. I dont know. Its seemed to come down to this alot. Am I worth getting off your ass for. it doesnt seem as though i am. I think im worth it, and frankly thats an improvement, at least I value me now. Now I just need the confidence that he does too, and not just because Im convenient. (ironic, i considered him "of conveniance" for a while too) You know how your in a relationship and your talking on the phone and you go to say goodbye, but "goodbye" or "talk to you later" seem lame and you definately arent ready for the whole "i love you" thing yet?(no?) well anyway. what are you supposed to say. I guess we've been substituting "i miss you" for that, less detatched sounding than "ttyl" but not as substancial as "I love you" *shrug* again, weird mood tonight.
Well I am going to read, call me people, I love it. after six every day.
Love you girls and i miss you tons. when are we doing christmas, or did you already do that. (sucks that I cant be there with you guys for our tuesdays and everything else important, i wish i could, but work calls, and it sucks too!) Love you love you love you girls!!!!
Juniper (my dog) doesnt seem to realize that she is bigger than the duck. Really. in wolf packs the submissive dogs will lie on their backs and the alpha wolf often shows dominance by biting on the jaws of the smaller dogs. so juniper sees the duck waddling across the room at her and she drops to her belly and rolls over. the duck then comes up and will bite at her lips nose teeth and tongue while juniper just takes it and cries. What weird animals. and then they walk around all day together like they are the best of friends.
Today i caught them fighting over the dog food. gilbert (the duck) would try to take food out of the bowl and the dog would yank the bowl away, then the duck waddles up and tries again, and the dog yanks the bowl away. bizaar creatures.
I have an obsession with my dads new paper shredder in his office. I know its gonna be broken before long. I keep putting things in there just to see if it will shred them and what kind of noice that will make, Ive done paper cardboard credit cards, some craft foam, and bubble wrap. I wonder if cheese would get stuck?
I asked Ron on the phone today "If I murdered someone, would you help me hide the body?" I could tell by the silence on the other side that he probably wouldn't. I dont know if thats good or bad. That shows that hes not fiercely loyal to me, which is bad. But it also means that he has some morals, which cant be all that bad right? Or maybe he was just thinking "OMG my girlfriend is PSYCHOTIC!" so i made sure to add "oh, dont worry. I didnt kill anyone." LOL, god i am in a wierd mood tonight.
A new episode of LOST was on tonight. FINALLY. after a month or more of waiting we got a new episode.
I feel bad that I really dont want to drive down to visit ron this weekend, its not that i dont want to see him. I really do. But i dont want to drive that far again. Im exhausted from all that driving, I think I have driven the last three visits. Why should it always be up to me. He could get his liscence, he has a job and just got a paycheck bigger than my last one. He has his parents van for the taking just like me. I dont know. Its seemed to come down to this alot. Am I worth getting off your ass for. it doesnt seem as though i am. I think im worth it, and frankly thats an improvement, at least I value me now. Now I just need the confidence that he does too, and not just because Im convenient. (ironic, i considered him "of conveniance" for a while too) You know how your in a relationship and your talking on the phone and you go to say goodbye, but "goodbye" or "talk to you later" seem lame and you definately arent ready for the whole "i love you" thing yet?(no?) well anyway. what are you supposed to say. I guess we've been substituting "i miss you" for that, less detatched sounding than "ttyl" but not as substancial as "I love you" *shrug* again, weird mood tonight.
Well I am going to read, call me people, I love it. after six every day.
Love you girls and i miss you tons. when are we doing christmas, or did you already do that. (sucks that I cant be there with you guys for our tuesdays and everything else important, i wish i could, but work calls, and it sucks too!) Love you love you love you girls!!!!