2007 UNCUT
I do this every year on New Year's Eve, so here it is. My highs and lows of 2007 and my aspirations for 2008.
"And we sit in a bar and talk till two.
'Bout life and love as old friends do,
And tell each other what we've been through.
How love is rare, life is strange.
Nothing lasts, people change."
Since I've had this journal, this is the first year that nothing "major" happened in my life. In past years: My grandfather died. I moved. I got my driver's license. I was in a car accident that almost ended my life. I auditioned for a zillion different things. My brother graduated and went away to college...and came back. I graduated and went to college...and thought about coming back. I'm not saying nothing happened this year because that's not true...at all.
The Good
1. I decided to switch my major from Biochemistry to Chemistry, and decided to minor in Music Performance.
2. I had an AMAZING job this summer. I worked full time for the first time in my life. I was extremely busy, but I loved it. I worked with some awesome people [especially Ann].
3. Despite everything...I survived my freshman year of college.
4. I got a 4.0 this semester..and in my mind..I "redeemed" myself.
5. I did biological research earlier this year ["The Effects of 3-NPA on a RAW 264.7 cell line"]
The Bad
1. I took the Biology class from hell taught by Satan himself. (I wish I was exaggerating)
2. My nana's Alzheimer's is a lot worse. We had to put her in assisted living, which she was very upset about at first, but now she likes it. It's just sad though. She didn't know last Tuesday was Christmas..or that last Wednesday was my mother's birthday..or that last Thursday was my uncle's birthday.
3. My mom was very stressed because of the above..and drove me crazy.
4. My mom told me yesterday that my grandmother in Kentucky [my dad's mother] has bladder cancer. My dad's going down to KY next week to be with my grandfather while my grandmother's in the hospital. I'm trying to be optimistic though. The survival rate for bladder CA is 94% over 5 years if it doesn't spread, 49% if it spreads to the pelvis, and 6% if it spread to other organs. We don't know if it spread yet, but as I said..I'm being optimistic.
5. OCMD 2007 was a disaster.
6. Stress has found new ways to attack my body, as if panic attacks weren't bad enough.
The Ugly
1. My GPA took a nose dive because of that stupid bio class, but as I said..I have redeemed myself.
2. Did I mention OCMD was a disaster? Make that Disaster with a capital "D".
3. I lost two friends, well one friend and her b/f [who I really didn't like to begin with] because of events that were so dramatic I think I should write a movie for a Lifetime channel about it. I think one day Sam is going to see things in a different light and want to be friends with us again. Glenn, however, can go to hell. Thank you very much.
4. My heart got trampled on...twice. HAH
Miscellaneous
1. For my 19th birthday, I went to the Windsor Inn with my friends, then to my house for a small party.
2. I went to the US Open with my sister...and watched Novak Djokovic practice for the majority of the day.
3. I saw Spring Awakening on broadway!!!! And I swear it changed my life.
2008: What the future holds?
1. I'll be turning 20. Which doesn't seem right. I don't feel like I should be 20. Although, deep down, I think I convinced myself that I'm still a 17-year-old senior in high school and this is all a nightmare I'll wake up from.
2. I will also be ending my sophomore year of college and starting my junior year of college...which also doesn't seem right.
3. I'm going to teach myself how to play the guitar. I'm doing pretty well so far [in my opinion].
4. I plan on studying for the MCATs. I'll read the Anatomy and Physiology books I got for Christmas. Maybe I'll take a class. I don't know. I just know I need to start that at some point this year.
5. I WILL lose more weight...even if it kills me [yes, I mean that in a literal sense =P]
6. I swear I won't give a damn about my relationship status. All I really need in life are my two best friends. =D
"It's been a long December, and there's reason to believe maybe this year will be better than the last.
I can't remember all the times I tried to tell myself to hold on to these moments as they pass."
"And we sit in a bar and talk till two.
'Bout life and love as old friends do,
And tell each other what we've been through.
How love is rare, life is strange.
Nothing lasts, people change."
Since I've had this journal, this is the first year that nothing "major" happened in my life. In past years: My grandfather died. I moved. I got my driver's license. I was in a car accident that almost ended my life. I auditioned for a zillion different things. My brother graduated and went away to college...and came back. I graduated and went to college...and thought about coming back. I'm not saying nothing happened this year because that's not true...at all.
The Good
1. I decided to switch my major from Biochemistry to Chemistry, and decided to minor in Music Performance.
2. I had an AMAZING job this summer. I worked full time for the first time in my life. I was extremely busy, but I loved it. I worked with some awesome people [especially Ann].
3. Despite everything...I survived my freshman year of college.
4. I got a 4.0 this semester..and in my mind..I "redeemed" myself.
5. I did biological research earlier this year ["The Effects of 3-NPA on a RAW 264.7 cell line"]
The Bad
1. I took the Biology class from hell taught by Satan himself. (I wish I was exaggerating)
2. My nana's Alzheimer's is a lot worse. We had to put her in assisted living, which she was very upset about at first, but now she likes it. It's just sad though. She didn't know last Tuesday was Christmas..or that last Wednesday was my mother's birthday..or that last Thursday was my uncle's birthday.
3. My mom was very stressed because of the above..and drove me crazy.
4. My mom told me yesterday that my grandmother in Kentucky [my dad's mother] has bladder cancer. My dad's going down to KY next week to be with my grandfather while my grandmother's in the hospital. I'm trying to be optimistic though. The survival rate for bladder CA is 94% over 5 years if it doesn't spread, 49% if it spreads to the pelvis, and 6% if it spread to other organs. We don't know if it spread yet, but as I said..I'm being optimistic.
5. OCMD 2007 was a disaster.
6. Stress has found new ways to attack my body, as if panic attacks weren't bad enough.
The Ugly
1. My GPA took a nose dive because of that stupid bio class, but as I said..I have redeemed myself.
2. Did I mention OCMD was a disaster? Make that Disaster with a capital "D".
3. I lost two friends, well one friend and her b/f [who I really didn't like to begin with] because of events that were so dramatic I think I should write a movie for a Lifetime channel about it. I think one day Sam is going to see things in a different light and want to be friends with us again. Glenn, however, can go to hell. Thank you very much.
4. My heart got trampled on...twice. HAH
Miscellaneous
1. For my 19th birthday, I went to the Windsor Inn with my friends, then to my house for a small party.
2. I went to the US Open with my sister...and watched Novak Djokovic practice for the majority of the day.
3. I saw Spring Awakening on broadway!!!! And I swear it changed my life.
2008: What the future holds?
1. I'll be turning 20. Which doesn't seem right. I don't feel like I should be 20. Although, deep down, I think I convinced myself that I'm still a 17-year-old senior in high school and this is all a nightmare I'll wake up from.
2. I will also be ending my sophomore year of college and starting my junior year of college...which also doesn't seem right.
3. I'm going to teach myself how to play the guitar. I'm doing pretty well so far [in my opinion].
4. I plan on studying for the MCATs. I'll read the Anatomy and Physiology books I got for Christmas. Maybe I'll take a class. I don't know. I just know I need to start that at some point this year.
5. I WILL lose more weight...even if it kills me [yes, I mean that in a literal sense =P]
6. I swear I won't give a damn about my relationship status. All I really need in life are my two best friends. =D
"It's been a long December, and there's reason to believe maybe this year will be better than the last.
I can't remember all the times I tried to tell myself to hold on to these moments as they pass."