Aug 28, 2010 10:48
I never knew my heart could ache so much or that I could cry this many tears.
We tried so hard, but we just couldn't save him.
Mom took him to the vet yesterday morning, and she left him there hoping there was something of a miracle that could be done after his condition had worsened since I left to return to MN on Monday evening.
Perhaps he had felt he could go since I had made it home to say goodbye last weekend.
But my heart breaks a thousand times over for my mom.
The dog truly was her best friend and her greatest love. And now he's gone.
He held on for as long as he could, but the injury to his spinal cord was too great... no amount of love, hope, or medical care could have prevailed.
He passed away after his heart stopped yesterday afternoon while at Town and Country Animal Hospital in Wheeling.
I haven't stopped crying since I called the vet myself to check on him since a call at 1:30 PM had not been returned by 6 PM eastern.
There is nothing I can do to stop the flow of tears. And i know that if I am crying this much, it's ten times worse for my poor mom. The dog was everything to her and the one spot of brightness she had. To say that he will be greatly missed is an understatement.
And he was only 6 1/2 years young.
I hope the lady who lives 2 doors down from Mom is happy now that her dog is a killer... None of this would have ever happened if she'd had her f*cking rottweiler on a g*ddamn leash that day... Bun would still be alive and his spinal cord wouldn't have been compromised.
I pray that Mom can find some way to move on with life. She said she doesn't want another dog, because she loved Bun so much and another dog would just make it hurt far too much in remembering what a good boy he was.
She is having him cremated and wishes for his ashes to be buried with her when the time comes.
My heart is broken into a thousand pieces.
People say everything in life happens for a reason. Well there was NO reason for this to happen. No one can make me believe otherwise.